Christianity's repression of meditation

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I was baptised Catholic, went through the rituals of first communion and confirmation (and found confirmation especially a powerful positive experience for me). I also went to a private Catholic high school with Jesuit teachers. I found the Jesuits to be very open and non-judgmental, we learned a lot about world religions and it was pretty unbiased. In the last year we were taken to a Jesuit retreat for a weekend and they actually taught us to meditate.

My mother also works as the administrator of a Catholic basilica (even thought she claims to be an atheist) and the priests there are (for the most part) very open-minded.

Over-all I have had a positive experience with Catholicism, but the dogma never really matched my personal beliefs which is why I no longer consider myself Catholic (Christianity in general is too masculine for my taste).

It's also worth noting that Carla was a devout Christian her whole life. I think it's a perfectly valid path for seeking, though it's not for everyone and it can be twisted to serve various purposes.