05-31-2016, 02:53 PM
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I had a personal spiritual epiphany 17 years ago.
An immediate consequence of this epiphany was a rending (I use this word because there was a bruising feel, though without true pain) and a thrumming (literally, inside my body a vibration) and a heat (literally, other people could feel it too) and an expansion of (what I later learned) was my heart chakra. (Sorry for all these parentheticals but the words of the experience are too shallow to contain it.)
Basically, my heart grew 10 sizes in one day. (Thank you Dr. Seuss.)
My subjective state was of being in love . . . . with everything. My friends and colleagues thought I was on drugs. I was in shock because it was an overwhelming sense of love (not joy, not attraction, not courtship, not plunder) but purpose. That’s as close as I can come to it. I felt I had a purpose. And everything else had a purpose too. And that includes every “thing” and every “event” too (an event being simply a psychological “object” and a “thing” in and of itself). So I was transported from a Random Cause-and-Effect Universe into a Conscious and Loving Universe . . . all at once. And without actually going anywhere.
(I will add another parenthetical to acknowledge that my expanded heart state was also pure power as well. I could manifest things within exceedingly short periods of time. So short that I could have an internal thought and watch it unfold/come into beingness outside of me. This “love” is as much a pure form of energy as is light or electricity. It is spiritual power. And it was coming through me as much as it was being generated by me.)
This spiritual transformation was, I believe, also a “transformation of the mind” within the meaning of the Lovers Card, even though it occurred as an entirely solo activity (no partner) and did not involve a conscious choice at all. My transformation did not involve any aspect of the STO/STS polarity choice. Yet, still, I believe the Lover’s Card was in full play and applicable.
So the card seems to have these prime meanings: 1. The first conscious recognition of the STS vs STO choice that an entity has probably already unconsciously adopted for some time/lives. 2. The “way” to love another entity (plunder/exploitation/self-gratification vs. acceptance/giving unconditionally/admiration) (instant gratification/temptation vs. delayed gratification) (treating self and other as object, versus treating self and other with reverence and devotion). 3. How to put the deep mind “to work” (intentionally using the mind to do things, make things, and to create v. letting the deep mind itself send up the desired action, which I called a “longing” or a calling or the whispers from the Higher Self exhorting me to do stuff that I had “no mind” to do on my own. 4. Doing “good” vs. doing not-good (discerning the intent behind thought, word or deed before the doing of it).
And I was changed. My legal career would soon end (voluntarily) as I started to own up to the transformation and shed the things that I no longer needed. One of which was being acknowledged by my peers as having a brilliant legal mind.
And I was changed. I had instant activation of Blue Ray (surprise!) and could give perfect strangers the most incredible from-the-heart advice, which I did not actually consciously know, but which seemed to flow out of my mouth without conscious control. (Indeed, I describe these talks as out-of-body experiences because I was astonished by what was coming out of my own mouth with such earnestness. I felt I was two people, one speaking and the other watching myself speak the most profound things.)
And I was changed. The universe collapsed into perfection, and I ceased to have any desire or need to change any of it. I simply accepted it, as is. (And I accepted me too.) In this way, I have abandoned one “way” completely, the way of “self as primary focus of self.” And yet, still, I am not a self-less person. I “put my mind to work” solving problems and making money. I shop at places that a more socially conscious person would avoid. I don’t always give money to beggars. I don’t always think charitable thoughts. And yet and yet, that’s okay too because I am part of a Perfect and Loving and Conscious Universe.
I still live IN the world. I accept this. The world is not perfect. But I accept that at another level, it really is perfect, so I don’t need to DO anything about it, if I do not want to.
And, I help when I can.
An immediate consequence of this epiphany was a rending (I use this word because there was a bruising feel, though without true pain) and a thrumming (literally, inside my body a vibration) and a heat (literally, other people could feel it too) and an expansion of (what I later learned) was my heart chakra. (Sorry for all these parentheticals but the words of the experience are too shallow to contain it.)
Basically, my heart grew 10 sizes in one day. (Thank you Dr. Seuss.)
My subjective state was of being in love . . . . with everything. My friends and colleagues thought I was on drugs. I was in shock because it was an overwhelming sense of love (not joy, not attraction, not courtship, not plunder) but purpose. That’s as close as I can come to it. I felt I had a purpose. And everything else had a purpose too. And that includes every “thing” and every “event” too (an event being simply a psychological “object” and a “thing” in and of itself). So I was transported from a Random Cause-and-Effect Universe into a Conscious and Loving Universe . . . all at once. And without actually going anywhere.
(I will add another parenthetical to acknowledge that my expanded heart state was also pure power as well. I could manifest things within exceedingly short periods of time. So short that I could have an internal thought and watch it unfold/come into beingness outside of me. This “love” is as much a pure form of energy as is light or electricity. It is spiritual power. And it was coming through me as much as it was being generated by me.)
This spiritual transformation was, I believe, also a “transformation of the mind” within the meaning of the Lovers Card, even though it occurred as an entirely solo activity (no partner) and did not involve a conscious choice at all. My transformation did not involve any aspect of the STO/STS polarity choice. Yet, still, I believe the Lover’s Card was in full play and applicable.
So the card seems to have these prime meanings: 1. The first conscious recognition of the STS vs STO choice that an entity has probably already unconsciously adopted for some time/lives. 2. The “way” to love another entity (plunder/exploitation/self-gratification vs. acceptance/giving unconditionally/admiration) (instant gratification/temptation vs. delayed gratification) (treating self and other as object, versus treating self and other with reverence and devotion). 3. How to put the deep mind “to work” (intentionally using the mind to do things, make things, and to create v. letting the deep mind itself send up the desired action, which I called a “longing” or a calling or the whispers from the Higher Self exhorting me to do stuff that I had “no mind” to do on my own. 4. Doing “good” vs. doing not-good (discerning the intent behind thought, word or deed before the doing of it).
And I was changed. My legal career would soon end (voluntarily) as I started to own up to the transformation and shed the things that I no longer needed. One of which was being acknowledged by my peers as having a brilliant legal mind.
And I was changed. I had instant activation of Blue Ray (surprise!) and could give perfect strangers the most incredible from-the-heart advice, which I did not actually consciously know, but which seemed to flow out of my mouth without conscious control. (Indeed, I describe these talks as out-of-body experiences because I was astonished by what was coming out of my own mouth with such earnestness. I felt I was two people, one speaking and the other watching myself speak the most profound things.)
And I was changed. The universe collapsed into perfection, and I ceased to have any desire or need to change any of it. I simply accepted it, as is. (And I accepted me too.) In this way, I have abandoned one “way” completely, the way of “self as primary focus of self.” And yet, still, I am not a self-less person. I “put my mind to work” solving problems and making money. I shop at places that a more socially conscious person would avoid. I don’t always give money to beggars. I don’t always think charitable thoughts. And yet and yet, that’s okay too because I am part of a Perfect and Loving and Conscious Universe.
I still live IN the world. I accept this. The world is not perfect. But I accept that at another level, it really is perfect, so I don’t need to DO anything about it, if I do not want to.
And, I help when I can.
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