10-06-2010, 08:41 AM
What is dousing? or do you mean dowsing? If it is dowsing you refer to, I cannot use it for myself. whenever I asked about myself the answers I got were misleading since I seem to stand in the way because I am too involved in the outcome. do you understand what I mean?
I cannot empty myself from my desires or wishes when I ask and thus the answers I get are always tainted. The same goes for using the pendulum. Tarot neither.
The only thing that helps me understand so far seems astrology and it has always been fairly accurate, also concerning transits etc.
My tendency toward self-deception only comes in when I compare my chart to that of my relationships...
You know, somehow this whole "finding the one green ray /soulmate person" right now does not ring true to me. It is as if trying to graduate from high-school before having finished kindergarden.
Seriously, I think the task is to try and find that love within myself. As I had it, for some time already. Because then it does not matter anyway if I live with someone or alone, because no matter what, I will have the love anyway. I will be love. I am love.
btw, who knows what my preincarnative choice was ... maybe it was just that, "find the love within yourself, find the bliss of living alone". Maybe I am not supposed to be with anyone anyway. How I would love to glimpse behind the veil for a second and review my preincarnative choices..
I cannot empty myself from my desires or wishes when I ask and thus the answers I get are always tainted. The same goes for using the pendulum. Tarot neither.
The only thing that helps me understand so far seems astrology and it has always been fairly accurate, also concerning transits etc.
My tendency toward self-deception only comes in when I compare my chart to that of my relationships...
You know, somehow this whole "finding the one green ray /soulmate person" right now does not ring true to me. It is as if trying to graduate from high-school before having finished kindergarden.
Seriously, I think the task is to try and find that love within myself. As I had it, for some time already. Because then it does not matter anyway if I live with someone or alone, because no matter what, I will have the love anyway. I will be love. I am love.
btw, who knows what my preincarnative choice was ... maybe it was just that, "find the love within yourself, find the bliss of living alone". Maybe I am not supposed to be with anyone anyway. How I would love to glimpse behind the veil for a second and review my preincarnative choices..
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