Suicide

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I've heard suicidal thoughts are common for wanderers.

I've learned recently that a friend of a friend, with whom I have been chatting on Facebook, committed suicide. I just brought up ayahuasca in conversation one day, and my friend said "you should connect with this other friend of mine, he did it". So I contacted him on Facebook, and we chatted a bit about ayahuasca and where he did it and what it was like and so on. My friend talked about him often, because he's so "otherwise". His mom is quite famous, and he had a very strained relationship with her. He was also into the Ra material, and then we stopped talking and some time went by, and two months ago I saw on a magazine cover that he committed suicide. He just phoned his mom and said "sorry for all the pain", put the phone down and shot himself...

From all the stories my friend told about him and the nature of his Facebook posts, and especially from reading the magazine article , I thought to myself he was such a wanderer, and then this regret came over me for not connecting with him personally.

Thank you, both of you. This has touched me.