Under attack... in desperate need of help...

[Jade]

What Spaced said. In 3rd density, polarity is power. If you are unpolarized but lean towards STS, then you are a potential recruit and that's what they're working towards. But, what the Law of One teaches is that we are here to make The Choice, whichever it may be. Once you dedicate yourself to a path, catalyst becomes more regular to fit along that path and less random. If you don't want to decide, that's your choice too - but real power of personality comes through polarity. I think if you want to change your situation, you need to choose one or the other with dedication and point your compass in that direction.