(04-26-2016, 08:24 AM)Minyatur Wrote: As for negative attack, I guess forgiveness always is the key that stops the wheel of karma.
About timeline shifting, will and focus. If you are not able to it is because you do not truly desire it (oposite desires can be unconscious). I believe what is happening to you should've been predictable from becore incarnating, so I may suggest to ponder why you incarnated in this world and seek purpose and direction in that.
About 4D positive social memory complexes, I believe joinning one would require healing which could in turn transmute your aversion of the idea and desire to be alone.
Hope any of this helps.
In a sense, yes. That's one reason why I'm not jumping at a chance to get violent over the situation, because the more I allow my emotions to be controlled, the more karmic attachments I create. Now, you can be violent or do anything you want without creating karma as long as you do it without self-identification, because "negative karma" is set in motion by you and can be stopped by you; it's not a punishment-and-reward system, it's just motion in time/space. Allow others to manipulate your emotions and they can manipulate the direction you go, which is why, in this situation, I need to take a breather before I take action, because I have to recognize that I'm dealing with something very intelligent, and I'm not thinking straight right now, plus it might not be worth the effort. This goes even for people who aren't actively trying to manipulate you, but is especially dangerous when you're dealing with demons. I'm not in any condition to go around picking fights at the moment.
I think that my only obstacle to timeline travel, or other things right now, is my belief in/connection to the consensus reality. As far as desire goes, it has to be matched by belief, and the more "plugged in" I am to some consensus reality, the more susceptible I am to its rules. Which is another reason why I don't care for social memory complexes.
On an astral level, I just have to remove certain elements, and then it'll be easier. In the occasions when I have accomplished it, I find that it's moving myself to a different place in time/space, or perhaps above it, in such a way that I'm basically looking at the consensus reality from a different direction. Meaning, I can be astrally plugged in to the so-called Matrix and still have an effect, but they've blindfolded themselves to the mechanism I use for jumping, so to them it looks like I'm just psychotic and things were always they way they are in the place that I jumped to.
There are not a whole lot of positive things I'm interested in. "Healing" in a positive sense would mean letting go of most aspects of my personality. I'm highly polarized in the other direction, to the point where I would possibly rather die and fade away into nothingness than join a positive complex.
Positive social memory complex would mean abandoning my hatred, self-centered nature, and love of horror and Darkness. When it comes to STS-oriented people, I'm definitely on the nicer end of the spectrum; I try to be honorable, I'm genuinely capable of caring about people, and while nobody who knows me would describe me as even remotely sane or socially responsible, they don't think I'm as monstrous as some people make me out to be. My heart is pure.
But... the idea of a positive social memory complex just makes me sick. It just doesn't seem like there is anything there for me.
Of course, I'm also not a fan of negative ones, because they aren't free, which is important, because liberation is the ultimate goal of separation. I think that the ration of LHP orgs in the universe to actual people/entities on the LHP are around 1:3 at best. 95% of the stuff in such groups almost seems designed to distract from the actual path, which is probably how the people at the top want it.
I want the freedom to be me. Positive can't accept me the way that I am, and fights me even for the few things that I'd need to be happy. Negative won't let me be free, nor even at least just give me what I want. Alone, outside of space/time as we experience it here, in a place where I can enjoy myself, is better.
(04-26-2016, 09:27 AM)1109 Wrote: If I were you I would seek out a therapist, preferably someone with spiritual understanding. To me it looks like you're unstable and delusional and in need of professional help. Although I believe that psychic attacks from negative entities exist, I think it's a lot more common that the cause is internal. Maybe it's just catalyst that you're interpreting incorrectly, maybe you're having a kundalini awakening, maybe you have a mental illness that should be treated. I don't mean to judge, I simply don't want to encourage potentially selfdestructive thoughts and behaviors.
You're either trying to manipulate me, or you have no idea what you're typing about.
Those people are not interested in helping me make spiritual progress. To say the very least.
I tried working with them, but there's no working with them. Give them an inch and they'll take a continent. Liars who just want to control people. I was warned early on to "stay away from the mental health system, those places never help anybody". Advice I wish I'd payed attention to. A full decade of torture and brain damage.