02-21-2016, 05:18 AM
Hi guys and girls ;-)
I want to share with you some sentiment that I have pretty much for all of my life. I would like you to comment if maybe you have experienced something similar.
Namely, the sentiment is best described as “re-playing a video game for the umpteen time”.
Since I was a small child I have been pretty much indifferent to “this world”, or in other words, I have always been indifferent to the strife, agitation, engagement of the people around me. Exactly as if you re-play your favourite video game. Like “what is the big problem, this is all irrelevant anyways...?” You have played it for so many times now that you know every possible permutation, every dialogue option, you have explored the whole map, gathered all collectibles, made every possible choice provided for in the “screenplay”, etc., etc., in other words, you have done all of this before.
Now imagine that you decide to replay the game for “good ol’ times’ sake”, to “relive the thrill”, so to speak, to reminisce your childhood. And now you play the game, you enjoy it in the moment for what it is... but it offers no special novelty or excitement.
And this has been the leitmotif of my life, actually... the feeling of "having done this before so many times, what is the big deal?"
Any of you had a similar experience?
S
I want to share with you some sentiment that I have pretty much for all of my life. I would like you to comment if maybe you have experienced something similar.
Namely, the sentiment is best described as “re-playing a video game for the umpteen time”.
Since I was a small child I have been pretty much indifferent to “this world”, or in other words, I have always been indifferent to the strife, agitation, engagement of the people around me. Exactly as if you re-play your favourite video game. Like “what is the big problem, this is all irrelevant anyways...?” You have played it for so many times now that you know every possible permutation, every dialogue option, you have explored the whole map, gathered all collectibles, made every possible choice provided for in the “screenplay”, etc., etc., in other words, you have done all of this before.
Now imagine that you decide to replay the game for “good ol’ times’ sake”, to “relive the thrill”, so to speak, to reminisce your childhood. And now you play the game, you enjoy it in the moment for what it is... but it offers no special novelty or excitement.
And this has been the leitmotif of my life, actually... the feeling of "having done this before so many times, what is the big deal?"
Any of you had a similar experience?
S