Unresolved Self

[ada]

There is no knowing

do you want to know?

Yes.
I am most definitely certain what I experienced is real no doubt what so ever, going through that being in that place at the time seeing 'that'. And then remembering nothing? I wish and deserve to know.

i feel like i remember your experience from the viewpoint of the person telling you to listen in the dream.

i would say that what you experience including the unresolved self is a part of yourself you have not learned to love yet.

tis a spark of the creation still infinite? quite yes through all the different archetypes or motions in response to emotional causation.

whoever said they were the alpha and omega said so to state balance between two opposing forces of contraction and expansion.

what may be perceived as service to others or light, or good, may be referred to as the contractive quality, taking care of one self as well as others,

While expansion may be percieved as service to self or evil, it may also be referred to as the expansive quality, making space for there to be growth or a delineation from where you were.


What I am trying to say is the parts of you that you are finding hard and painful, show themselves that way by design, because your higher self is saying look, this is that thing you don't like, but this is a part of you too. Just remember everything is one, including you, me, this whole forum, everyone here.

Those painful things are the things your higher self is saying hey heal these things so you can be on the way to becoming more like your higher self.

I was only 18 at that point, this is really difficult for me to perceive. I experienced something unusual in the reality, I wasn't drugged or asleep.
I will take your words to my meditation. Thank you.