Unresolved Self

[ada]

You do not understand.
I accept everything for what is, existence's all the same no matter how different.
You need to try and gap the severity of this. I am not suffering, I am not afraid nor I am able to do anything beyond to my ability about this.
There is another mind/spirit/thought/being with its own awareness. That is what I mean by "negativity".

Do you mean that there may be an other entity/consciousness in you ?

Not precisely, I am in my own control/thought.
There's something else in what I can describe a parallel window/reality that collides with my own whenever I meditate.

I don't think this happens for no reason as this would require resonance between you and that other-thing. But the reasons relate to you and so you have their roots to uncover within your unconscious.

What is reason?
I'm apologize as we aren't on the same line of thought, therefore I ask to put this conversation aside.