Booking my first ayahuasca trip

[Sabou]

I made my own pharmahuasca brew once. It was DMT, Syrian Rue, and orange juice to make the Rue pallitable. I initially found it to be difficult to choke down but did not not feel sick / purge later on. I really wish I could have purged because my body metabolized too much and I had a very bad trip. I think the purging aspect of aya is a built in safeguard to taking more than you can handle.

That is an interesting point of view about the purging to be a safeguard. I never necessarily thought about it in that context. I was reading about an experience of another who took ayahuasca and was made aware of a major blockade in their solar plexus, and it persisted until they surrendered to the purging of which they were fighting for hours, and once they finally surrendered to it, it was as if the block "popped" open and made what could have been an uncomfortable or non progressional experience into a release. 

I am curious as to how your experience would have changed if a purging was incorporated (if it was meant to be) and if there was something inherently "wrong" about the experience.