Greetings from the Dark

[Aion]

Illamasqua:  I certainly did not incarnate in a STS family or environment.  I may not agree on the methods of creating a power differential for personal reasons but I hear what your saying.  I do like how you said that most entities considered negative on this planet are either unpolarized/lukewarms or confused "positives".  That really rings true for me, both of them in fact.  I think I recall from the LOO that it was said that polarization is the "charge" or potential to do work in consciousness.  Understanding how all things are connected, can I not do work upon my own consciousness, or work with consciousness itself, without having other people physically around, and would this not cause a shift in polarization?  Maybe I am failing to understand how others are needed to polarize.  I think it has more to do with our state of mind and intentions.  Can't that cause a shift in our polarity?  These kinds of questions I often ponder.  I have much work to do on exploring these things within myself.  The last set of paragraphs you wrote makes a lot of sense as far as allowing the experience/realization of the non-illusion which is the One Reality beyond Creation, and how the positive uses the experience of separation to realize its unity with the One Reality and the ultimate dissolution of all illusion (hence "selflessness") and the negative seeks to realize its own "exclusivity" (hence "selfishness") from the rest of Creation by the deliberate augmentation or magnification of said illusion.  Yes that makes a lot of sense.  Thanks for the reply.

Aion:  I think I have been drawn to the negative out of a feeling of powerlessness based on my experiences in life mostly in my childhood.  It seems like a bit of an extreme to want to go that far in the seeking of power I guess.  I am thinking since 4th density STS entities primary methods of offering STS to 3rd density entities is through the offering of temptations and the energizing of distortions if I remember LOO correctly it is possible I have fallen victim to that.  Someone once told me I had entities around me that were not human and not of this dimension.  I think it's possible they were seeing such beings as the ones subtle influencing me.  Perhaps it is me that is being controlled.  And their trick is to try and make me think it is my own ideas to want STS and not their influence.  

Bring4th_Plenum:  I am thinking my interest in STS may just be a curiosity and wanting to know more about it which I think is relatively harmless.  From a certain level of consciousness it can be seen that their are no such things as enemies, for are not all one?  Still, I think it is wise to understand your adversary and what you are up against, so to better know what to expect and how it is best handled.  Being alone feels safe, that is what I am most comfortable with.  So this is one of my challenges, maybe a kind of catalyst, the ultimate catalyst, having to deal with others.  I think we make the choice of polarity first and then the actions follow as a result of that choice, kind of like what you were saying.  

spero: Yes I think you are correct.  I seem to have a problem with compassion here in this life.  I would say I have an abundance of development in the indigo chakra and less in the heart and lower chakras.  I am very mental, all mind, very little heart, not a feeler, more a thinker.  So I am very biased towards wisdom obviously.  That is one of my challenges to work with, much as one seriously lacking wisdom with an abundance of compassion is challenged to start doing a little more thinking and a little less feeling.  I think it is a very astute observation to make the association between the similarities of a wisdom oriented STO path in 3rd density verses a STS path as I had not considered this before.  I naturally tend to think of STO as purely compassion without wisdom.  I know it is not necessarily that way but it's easy to see how wisdom would be considered more similar to STS.  I think it is true what your saying about this so thank you for making the suggestion this is possible.  I have spent so many years of my life being so confused and feeling pulled in two directions all the time between my human side and my spiritual side constantly and consistently at odds with each other.  I am not comfortable being human or living here on Earth, and sometimes I don't think I am meant to be, since I don't belong here.  I have a lot of issues to work out, don't we all I guess in some way or another.  I think it is interesting how much information Ra would not reveal.  I wonder what systems of study Ra was referring to which offered the seekers of separation a way to open the gateway to intelligent infinity bypassing the 4th and 5th rays?  Interesting that someone from more modern times would know of such things such as the examples Ra gave.  I wonder if that information would be found starting on Google or something I have already heard of.  Perhaps it is simpler than I imagine it to be.  I cannot help but be curious especially of that which is kept secret or hidden, it is only natural to want to know that which kept from you.  How that information is used would be another thing.  I believe my intense seeking towards the knowledge of the dark may serve some higher purpose even those I am not STS oriented.  I want to know everything they (STS) know, no secrets.  The Sith know what the Jedi know, but do the Jedi know what the Sith know?  So who really has the advantage?  This is my line of thinking, in spiritual terms.  Lack of knowledge, called ignorance, does not lead to any good things in a world of duality.  Thank you for sharing the information about Zaxons newer user name, I was not aware of that.  I will have fun looking into that later.  

That is the the exact way that negative entities go about it, is to get you to think it's all your own thoughts. I was under an influence for years until I finally figured this out.