01-05-2016, 03:57 PM
Lol
I don't see it as cold though. I've actually contemplated that for a while before. I was scared that I had become emotionally indifferent for some reason. I was scared that what had happened during my constant analysis of myself was that I simply closed all emotion.
But as I kept thinking and thinking, I couldn't find a reason as to why I would have done this. I'm not emotionally scarred from anything. I had what many would consider a good childhood. Was a bit lonely but eventually realized it was because I had my own path. Sure I had a tough 4 or 5 years where my ex put me through hell but it never deterred me from finding another mate. Actually came to the realization that everything happened exactly like it was supposed to else I wouldn't have found this material. So I came to thank the hell I had been through.
So I was left trying to find a reason why emotions like anger, fear of death, sadness, loss, anguish, etc rarely make an appearance. Trust me I'm not claiming to be some Buddha. I still have plenty of work to do regarding balanced responses to emotionally charged situations. I have just come to a point where certain situations don't incite what would be considered the "normal" emotional response. I just see the situation for what it is and allow it to pass
I don't see it as cold though. I've actually contemplated that for a while before. I was scared that I had become emotionally indifferent for some reason. I was scared that what had happened during my constant analysis of myself was that I simply closed all emotion.
But as I kept thinking and thinking, I couldn't find a reason as to why I would have done this. I'm not emotionally scarred from anything. I had what many would consider a good childhood. Was a bit lonely but eventually realized it was because I had my own path. Sure I had a tough 4 or 5 years where my ex put me through hell but it never deterred me from finding another mate. Actually came to the realization that everything happened exactly like it was supposed to else I wouldn't have found this material. So I came to thank the hell I had been through.
So I was left trying to find a reason why emotions like anger, fear of death, sadness, loss, anguish, etc rarely make an appearance. Trust me I'm not claiming to be some Buddha. I still have plenty of work to do regarding balanced responses to emotionally charged situations. I have just come to a point where certain situations don't incite what would be considered the "normal" emotional response. I just see the situation for what it is and allow it to pass