Why do you do what you do?

[anagogy]

Nothingness is still something, I don't speak of the 'lack of' type of nothingness, just the illusion of emptiness.

If you are talking about illusions, then I can concur with that, because that is all I believe nothingness can be.  

From my perspective, there is absolute reality, and there is relative reality.  One is truth, the other is false.

But more realistically, humans are somewhere in the middle of those two poles of experience.  Emptiness can certainly appear to exist.  It just doesn't actually exist, in absolute terms, from my perspective.

And as for your other points, I can't say I agree or even disagree with your ideas about Ra and what not. Honestly the material has changed my life in meaningful ways, but I by no means put it on a pedestal above my own intuition. They way I see it, we are all holographic representations of infinity, and all knowledge is within each of us, if we become clear enough to accurately perceive it. And really, that's all channeling is too. The Ra material is a great primer for inner exploration however.

But anyway, my argument was strictly logical, but you've just stated that you don't even define nothingness as absence, so no wonder I don't understand your logic. So you're talking about the "illusion of emptiness". That's a whole other thing which I have no problem accepting. I would call that "conceptual nothingness", which is an idea inside of somethingness.