Letting go of the Law of One, Sorry.

[Monica]

To be in 3D, is to suffer.  The Law of One paints a picture, in my mind, that is of Hell.

I have concluded this also. But, Ra's explanation of why it is this way is the most logical, reasonable explanation I've heard. It sure beats the 'Adam and Eve ate an apple' version of why there's suffering!

I do fine it heartening that this planet is rather unusual. I think of it sort of like a school for juvenile delinquents.

What helps me is realizing that there is a LOT of other life out there. The Earth isn't the end-all. If Earth were all there is, that really would be depressing.

3rd Density is hell for many, and it is desired to be that way by the Creator.

I wouldn't say the Creator. But the Logos maybe...who is, essentially, the Creator of this little world in this little neck of the woods.

I, as an individual, have been told that my ego is wrong.  That I am wrong.  I...I don't know how to explain it beyond describing it. I don't know how to articulate it.  The Law of One is NOT evil or cruel, but inside it's depths is deposited some kind of...Pattern that when noticed, takes you right to hell on Earth inside your mind.  I noticed it, unfortunately.  I'm not the only one but they too have become silent in mentioning it, almost like it's a taboo...And even then they too don't seem to see it as I do.

You aren't the first person to say that. Another person told me almost exactly the same thing. I don't perceive it that way at all, but I can understand why others might. It might help to remember that Ra isn't a 'god' but simply a group of souls trying to help us. Think of them as...people who are just further along the road than we are.

OH BUT THERE'S MORE; not only are my thoughts apparently not my own, none of them are as I might be thinking things PUT INTO MY HEAD by another I am not aware of.  Another fine way to deal with this as designed apparently according to the Law of One, is to just 'pay attention' hoping you have the instinctual arsenal of conscious perks inside of you to be able to 'just tell' through 'resonance' if a thought of the infinite many you might be having at any moment, is or is not your own.
So not only can I not trust my actions and words are my own, but my thoughts too are not my own.  Nothing I do is my own beyond what I do and determine to be my own.

Where did you get that from? I see no basis for that idea in the Law of One.

And the implications of it are simply such that I don't want to be a part of.  I don't want to be a part of a being that desires such cruel things, who designs such cruel things, who manifests such cruel things.

I agree with you on that!

But some, if not many things in the Ra Material will now be systematically 'dropped' as Ra, Q'uo, and the others have asked I do when this information goes from useful to a blockage that I'm stumbling upon.

It's ok to drop parts of it that don't resonate, or even drop all of it entirely.

I don't even know if I should stick around this forum anymore, if it'd be insulting or somehow 'wrong' to denounce the Law of One and remain.  Certainly doing so always strikes a chord, even mentioning to 'fix' it will piss people off and turn them into the usual judgmental horrors I purposefully work graveyard shifts to vehemently avoid.

That's between you and the mods. I will say only that you aren't the only member here who doesn't fully accept Ra's teachings.

I desire to be left alone by people, by 'society'.  I have been alone, my entire life.  I don't comprehend what Unconditional Love is because I've never known it consciously even if its being given to me.  Because I'm oblivious, for whatever reason, because I am the way I am.

I'm sorry to hear that. Really. I hope you find unconditional love! In yourself and/or another.

Whats the point?
Then I'm rebutted with why must there be a point.  I answer to that with, because of suffering.  Why do they, I, we, us, everything, suffer so vehemently?  From 1st density to 2nd density to 3rd density to apparently 4th and 5th density (what with Thought War's and such as negative entities being transformed and positive entities falling to negativity).

I see a creation that is not what I desire to be in.

What, do I do?!!

Do you want to know what it is like to not want to be a part of something you apparently are inseparable from?  I don't even want to die, I just want to cease awareness, cease experience, cease existence here.  I want to silence my very consciousness and take from the Creator that part, and let it know I cannot accept its creation or being if this is truly what it is.

Maybe that is part of your mission...to tell the Logos that. I have concluded that for myself and fully intend to speak up. I think the Logos has lost touch with what's going on down here...what it feels like to be a junkie dying in an alley or a victim of violence dying a slow, cruel death...or even what it feels like to be a wolf and suffer from constant itching by fleas every single, miserable moment of his life.

Ra has stated that this was somewhat of an experiment. Well I have concluded that it's a failed experiment. That's what I'm reporting back. There has to be a better way to facilitate evolution! I refuse to accept that this is somehow optimal.

I can't accept that I live in Hell, that Hell lives in me, that this CAN BE LITERALLY Hell.  I cannot accept a being who did/will do/does these things, just to learn, to entities that...

The problem is, though, that rejecting the Law of One won't solve anything, because the problem lies not in Ra's explanation of why this is a 'hell' but the fact that it IS.

Whether one accepts the Law of One or not doesn't change that reality.

I think I've said enough, I think if you don't see my view by now and understand why I fear for some who come into contact with the Ra Material,

How is the Ra Material any worse than, say, the Christian religion which states that most of the world's population will suffer in a pit of fire for all eternity?

Personally I find Ra's explanation much more reasonable and compassionate. No eternal hell...just a temporary one. And Ra is the only entity who has provided us with the tools to effect change. Sure beats 'just accept Jesus as your Savior and you'll be in paradise but your unsaved loved ones will BURN!' mentality so prevalent in religions.

So.  I guess just let me know, should I stay or should I go?  No hard feelings on rejection.  Just...Be honest please.

No one can decide that for you. It is your choice. You might ask yourself whether you get value from this place, despite not accepting the Law of One.

P.S.  You should hear the things and opinions I am feeling towards my higher self at this time.  Why am I going through this?  What is there to learn from it when I just want to cease?  I don't want this.  At all...  Why...Would I desire this, to feel this, these, things?  At all?  Just.  At all...?

I understand. I really do. I've been there.

For what it's worth, blessings to you!

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