Longing

[Diana]

I am very lucky that I programmed meeting my husband as early as I did in my incarnation. It has been my plan to spend my time serving him, though. Sometimes I long for the loneliness, the ability to choose my desires above all else. There are definitely benefits to all paths.

I so agree with this. I think we tend to romanticize relationships. And aside from the catalyst they provide, which we all know about, there is a great deal of balancing that must happen no matter how detached and in service to love or others we may be. 

The idea of having someone to "nest" with, to hold, to be there for each other, is a beautiful thing. But when one is alone, one tends to be braver, more direct, more focused. Ultimately, I think the longing for a "mate" has more to do with separation, and not having the understanding that we are one anyway. We may have some levels of knowing about being one, but I think there are many layers involved.