10-13-2015, 10:56 AM
The reason you contempulate such energies is probably due to social pressures. Such as money, and how your mother thinks about you. These are fine and acceptable catalyst to be learned from. I am much like you. I am 27 years old, with two children. I am with my wife though. We were friends 5 years before we dated. One night we were hanging out with a group of friends. I opened the door for her, and as she walked past. I had an affirmation. I knew I would marry her, and have two children. Like you said it was planned. However because of financial pressure. We our forced to live with her mother. I know she is a major catalyst and mirror for me. I have often felt the same as you. My daily life will never switch gears from spiritual lessons it seems. I will try to make moves just like you, such go back to school. I can never find success. I often find myself saying "I just want to have fun." I understand how you feel, I believe. and believe what I said above is whats right for me. I need to stay focused on the creator, and the original thought. The time is ripe on Earth for real spiritual work to me done.