Am I a Nihilist Athiest Spiritualist?

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I sometimes wonder if all this spiritual stuff is real. I mean I've never had proof.

I have the same thought sometimes. That's why i believe faith and experience are paramount to existence. I've had some full blown mystical experiences that were so intense one couldn't come from such a state and not believe that their is something. The only problem is all of the undeniable experiences came from psychedelic use of shrooms and dmt. Since i wanted a deeper validation of the experiences I've been trying to recreate or surpass the experience while sober for the sake of validation to myself. If i can do it without an external substances the realness of the experience to me would be magnified exponentially as well as my faith would be magnified

@ APeacefulWarrior. I feel if life did have a point it would be to just enjoy it. to just experience it. I feel though that many people don't think that because it gives em no direction.