Rumpel, your inner beauty shines through your story. I am just now reading the jeshua.net series which speaks a great deal about the urgent need to heal our "inner child", to become the unconditionally loving parents to that inner child in order to heal ourselves. By doing this, we are able to experience the joy of life that is blocked by our inner pain. When I read your post, this series immediately came to mind - perhaps you will find some comfort and healing in it, as I did.
Welcome to the forum. It is wonderful to have your energy here.
Welcome to the forum. It is wonderful to have your energy here.