The Bad Mood

[rva_jeremy]

One of the things I've been struggling with is how to deal positively with a negative or "grumpy" disposition.  To the extent I'm able to, I've taken these feelings into meditation.  I have faith they will yield fruit in the long run.  However, it still boggles my mind.

Sometimes it's easy to accept things, move on, and voilla! one's attitude is changed.  But it's just not always that easy.  And I'm afraid that it gets in the way of my day-to-day in a destructive way.

I used to think that "bad moods" were just the result of people not taking responsibility for themselves and their mindsets, or worse: that they were experiences we indulged to create victim mentalities that foist responsibility on others.  Now I'm not so sure; I don't seem to be able to sit with this long enough or deep enough to make any sort of semblance of sense out of it.  I'm in the dark, and it's just really lonely to feel this disconnected due to nothing else but affect.

What I'm looking for, it occurs to me, is a strategy to deal with this.  Is that even useful or appropriate, from a spiritual point of view?  Should I just tough it out, feel it completely, and accept whatever experiences, actions, and feelings it elicits?

I know there's no right answers here, I guess I'll pass the mic.