09-08-2010, 08:09 PM
oh boy... I'm a 4 and a 6 when taking the mini/free test and I don't believe I need the full test to testify to the results.
Loyalist. Just the word evokes a lot of emotion for me. I read through both descriptions through tears... it is all still there.. the pain. Each trait/belief/idea is like the keys on a piano and I can hit any note at any time, good or bad.
Presently I am suffering the basic fears of the 6 (Basic Fear: Of being without support and guidance) and the 4 (Basic Fear: That they have no identity or personal significance) . Living them out.
It is very difficult to work up and out of them when they are in your face... but I also believe that poverty of any kind is not conducive to spirituality. I believe abundance is.
And it is playing out..as I am having a hard time fighting the darkness at present.
I am having twin flame issues and they have been building for some time. I am sure that it is for a reason that may turn out well in the future..but right now, knowing myself and how I deal with things on my own I am not seeing enough progress and every attempt to right myself seems to make it worse.
Reading the descriptions from a website just made it that much more "cemented" in my mind about how I deal with life. How I see myself. It enhanced my self-doubt.
Almost wish I hadn't read it and could live in a fantasy self some more, but my fantasies help me define my desires and it seems to work most of the time.. to visualize a more "true" self.
Faith in self.....I get moments of it...and then it is clouded by some force I can't always fight.
I have good days... and then right back again.
Inching my way I suppose.
Loyalist. Just the word evokes a lot of emotion for me. I read through both descriptions through tears... it is all still there.. the pain. Each trait/belief/idea is like the keys on a piano and I can hit any note at any time, good or bad.
Presently I am suffering the basic fears of the 6 (Basic Fear: Of being without support and guidance) and the 4 (Basic Fear: That they have no identity or personal significance) . Living them out.
It is very difficult to work up and out of them when they are in your face... but I also believe that poverty of any kind is not conducive to spirituality. I believe abundance is.
And it is playing out..as I am having a hard time fighting the darkness at present.
I am having twin flame issues and they have been building for some time. I am sure that it is for a reason that may turn out well in the future..but right now, knowing myself and how I deal with things on my own I am not seeing enough progress and every attempt to right myself seems to make it worse.
Reading the descriptions from a website just made it that much more "cemented" in my mind about how I deal with life. How I see myself. It enhanced my self-doubt.
Almost wish I hadn't read it and could live in a fantasy self some more, but my fantasies help me define my desires and it seems to work most of the time.. to visualize a more "true" self.
Faith in self.....I get moments of it...and then it is clouded by some force I can't always fight.
I have good days... and then right back again.
Inching my way I suppose.