Chakra Meditation and Stillness

[rva_jeremy]

That is what I am learning. My meditation currently focuses on opening, strengthening, and crystallizing the chakras, and experiencing the stillness. Looking forward to the next level! My main motivation for sticking around is preparing for what is to come, my spiritual seeking, and experiencing the shift that is occuring.

Good for you.  Personally I find a lot about your post that resonates.  I think we often do spiritual work like meditation somehow expecting, perhaps in the back of our mind, that we're to have a transcendent, revelatory, all-encompasing experience.  I've definitely spent most of my seeking thinking this way, and I've decided I'd rather unwind that and instead of being expectant, instead be observant.

First of all, the essence of the path we're on, it seems to me, is one of acceptance.  To expect, to seek out a specific experience presumes one knows what experience one needs.  I don't know about you, but once I realized I had no idea what I really needed, it was a lot easier to be where I'm at, and to do the spiritual work there, not in some pure energy body.

Secondly, there's the stumbling block of "spiritual materialism", as the theosophers call it, where one understands the spiritual path less as an inward path per se than as a path to a new kind of material reality in which the ego moves.  It's like expecting to find a third density made up of paranormal phenomena instead of normal phenomena.  This has the tendency to color the purposes to which one sets the meditative act.

Finally, that fear you talk about upon getting close is very primordial.  It was always a blocker to me too, as if I didn't have the courage to really lose myself and have that connecting experience, and so it became grounds for self-judgment.  This was self-defeating for me, and I realize that there's a "me" that isn't ready for that.  And that's ok, because the whole point of third density is to do a lot of intense work to prepare oneself for it.

I hope this connects with you in some of the way your post connected with me.