How to balance?

[Billy]

One trick is to not feel like you're working on anything. Accept that you are in a natural process that will take your whole life, most likely, but set your intentions to do your best each day. "Working" on yourself falls into place, then (along with daily meditation). Epiphanies happen throughout the day that allow certain pieces to fall together into a more comprehensive picture.

One goal of these balancing exercises is to learn to recognize one's thoughts. One HUGE thing is to eliminate self-defeating thoughts. Feeling confused? Don't beat yourself up, confusion is the stuff we make gold from in 3D. Feeling lost? Feeling like it's impossible? You just need to generate the more positive feelings from within. It's basically worth it to fake-it-til-you-make-it in that regard, when we start to reprogram our minds to work with us and not against us. Act and behave in the moment as if you are already balanced, believe you are balanced, and vibrationally you will naturally alighn yourself with a more balanced self. It's a constant war because each negative thought creates a new reality in the moment, and then each positive thought creates a new reality in the moment. It's a seesaw. The balancing techniques teach you how to be more in control of that seesaw, but first you have to learn to accept all emotions and not judge them, so that they are less fearful to experience and you can harness that potential instead of avoiding/surpressing it.

Isn't trying to eliminate certain thoughts a form of judgement and a lack of acceptance?  I feel that it is necessary to allow my so called negative thoughts and feelings to have their 'breathing' space and freedom of expression without rebuttal, interruption or justification.  I want to think and feel without restraint and without a filter. Is it thoughts that are the problem or is it our reaction to those thoughts? Are some thoughts innately harmful and distressing?  I want to be as authentic and as natural as possible.  Not sure if that is healthy though or if I am going about it the right way.  

This is where I am right now, trying to learn how to think in a way which promotes health and well being without avoidance/suppression.  I am struggling to find where the line is crossed from beneficial thought to thought which is not so beneficial.  Is there even such a line?  Or is it entirely up to me where that line is or whether there is a line at all?  What's wrong with hating myself and other?  What's wrong with having feelings and thoughts of disdain, repulsiveness and contempt?

I am in the process of starting regular visualization practices, like you and many others have suggested.  I will try to picture myself as having clarity, self-assurance, calmness, knowledge and being in a state of balance and equanimity.  I believe in these practices but I have yet to really implement them in my life thus far for whatever reason.  Maybe I am unwilling to give up the drama.