Dishonesty

[Diana]

If only I were completely wise I could generate catalyst of being with others honestly on my own, yet one may as well create people even then.
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I desire to be in a community where I can improve its position by MEANINGFUL, great, personal communication; Not encourage stagnation.
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I had a dream last night where I was gently knocking over all the desks, shelves of the government buildings I went to, in an attempt communicate in a way that mattered.
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I will now integrate in a small community to experience the catalyst of effective communication without the struggle of forced isolation as the above paragraph would bring.
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Effective communication is your own responsibility. I don't say this lightly. It's not easy at all, and one of the reasons I continue here—to develop effective communication on my part. To wish for a community of people who are in alignment with you totally is understandable, but not practical here in 3D, in my experience. 

I endeavor to stay focused on my self and my thoughts and actions, and not on what is seemingly unfair in the world. For my part, I have accepted that I am isolated in certain ways, but what of it? When I am with people, I endeavor to connect. None of it is easy.

I do think you are on the right track by putting yourself out there. In isolation, it is far easier to judge.