Financial Catalyst

[Bring4th_Austin]

Whenever I've tried to control money or plan / manage it then I've been walloped by financial catalyst

When I let go, let finance (energy) flow and trust that everything will be fine, it turns out that it is

When I had most reason to 'worry' finance wise I had an overwhelming urge to give away what little I had to sponsor a child overseas, I took that as a sign.

I think this is interesting, because I have had similar experience, but I have witnessed the opposite with so many other people. I know many people who keep a strict budget, keep tight control over all of their money, and make personal finance a sort of hobby that is always on the mind, and they do so with great success with a great cushion and sometimes going into a successful and comfortable retirement. And I also know people who seem to not pay mind to money and end up deep in debt.

But when I was attempting to keep a very tight budget, there seemed to be a bit of anxiety that played out as I put strictures on my money and attempted to force things into their proper and responsible place, and all of this fuss didn't seem to help me weather the flurry of quick and harsh financial catalyst any more than I could when I wasn't paying such close attention to my money.

From what I've witnessed and experienced, I think our beliefs and distortions around money tend to attract the type of financial catalyst we will experience. A person who enjoys doing their budget, feels a sense of accomplishment, responsibility, and security from doing so maybe has a better chance of success with that system, while a person who is more comfortable allowing money to be a more dynamic and flowing thing may have better experiences with that (just two of what could be many types of belief systems around money).

Even understanding this, it's hard for me not to feel worry or anxiety around financial issues sometimes, even when they aren't my own. I think it's a rich source of catalyst and the way we relate to money can probably help us understand ourselves in a very unique light.