Thanks again for the reply facettes, I appreciate the assistance. Talking yesterday with family, I was shown that they are open to the idea that there may be something in my childhood which is causing my feelings, and they were rather nice about it, which just makes me doubt things even further. If there was something in my childhood I feel that it would have come up by now, as I have been probing around for a few months, but to no real avail.
I feel that maybe I have mistakenly gotten this idea in my head and have been trying to pattern or mold my thoughts and feelings around it, thereby creating memories and thoughts which are false. The fair point was raised that if I was neglected as a child I would have shown symptoms, which I apparently didn't as I still played with my brothers and sister, and was social (to some extent at least).
I feel rather embarrassed and stupid now, as I am starting to think that maybe I have got this all wrong and that my emotions stem from elsewhere. I have been feeling quite sick over the last few days, I wonder if that means anything. I will be seeing a psychologist soon, and hopefully with their assistance, I can gain come clarity on these issues.
I feel that maybe I have mistakenly gotten this idea in my head and have been trying to pattern or mold my thoughts and feelings around it, thereby creating memories and thoughts which are false. The fair point was raised that if I was neglected as a child I would have shown symptoms, which I apparently didn't as I still played with my brothers and sister, and was social (to some extent at least).
I feel rather embarrassed and stupid now, as I am starting to think that maybe I have got this all wrong and that my emotions stem from elsewhere. I have been feeling quite sick over the last few days, I wonder if that means anything. I will be seeing a psychologist soon, and hopefully with their assistance, I can gain come clarity on these issues.