special weird different defective

[Reaper]

I wonder if anyone really feels like they fit in anywhere, or if every single person is just faking it, and watching others fake it, and assuming others have something they don't. 


I've long given up on being understood or feeling that I belong. It is just not going to happen. 

My friends straight up ask me to be someone other than my Self when we go out together, because they find me embarrassing. I've gotten to the point that I don't even try to explain myself. I doubt anyone I know recognizes the depth of the facade they are talking to, because the facade in itself is so complex and pretty.

I have seen my true power, and it is great and terrible. I am Change upon the earth, never standing still, burning up every system I touch. Who can befriend a force of nature? Who lingers near an inferno? I will be gone tomorrow, pushing ever-farther into the unknown, perpetually dying to myself and being reborn, and who would dare to follow me into that abyss? To truly know me is to find all you think you know shattered and cast as dust into the wind. To walk with me is to step through the valley of the Shadow of Death. I am cloaked in darkness because my light is blinding and every song I sing is for you.

Oh yeah, I also channel stuff like that ^ cause I've got the hook-up with you-know-who. I am so fuc%ing special. 

So done with pretending.