Meditation habits and tips

[VanAlioSaldo]

The shear amount of meditation techniques sometimes overwhelms me and causes me a great deal of anxiety as I feel as though my methods are inadequate and my growth and time would be better served practicing something else. Anyone else feel this?

As for my technique, it involves focusing on and being aware of the breath, in and out.  I have lately started counting the breath from 1 to 10 and repeating for a period of 15-20 minutes.  I sometimes use guided meditations on YouTube when I am finding it hard to maintain a regular practice.  One of things I have noticed is that I have a tendency to block out and try to force my mind to be still and thoughtless.  It's almost like I try to think my way out of thoughts.  Not very effective if I must say so.  I think I am making some progress in this regard however, and with more practice, hopefully I will continue to improve and be more accepting and loving.

I get anxiety too! Its like i feel like I'm shooting myself in the foot!

My technique is tailored to me. I sit on 2 to 4 pillows, sit, get comfy, slouch or sit straight. I like having something to lean back against personally (couch, bed frame, tree, garage door, chair to name a few I've done)

Im bad ADD i have next to no focus unless I'm immediately interested. This conflict with meditation has me in an odd place of inability to meditate at times.

My solution, trick my brain literally physically by holding a sphere palm sized forcing me to grasp it open palm. In my right hand it puts me in the perfect pplace.

The results are so far not extranormal with a few odd exceptions i hope will grow in occurrence. Otherwise, i Focus on the sphere, and once I'm.past my surface thoughts i relax my body with my breath with a few small yoga breathing tips and let the Theta and maybe Delta states settle in.

Thats when i begin experiencing everything more clearly and things start making sense.