06-13-2015, 08:30 PM
Hello, Joe;
You have been here such a short time and yet I can see it's been very difficult. You would probably not have experienced so much catalyst unless you were quite advanced, but I realize it is hard to know that as you wear the veil.
I just wanted to tell you that when I was your age (years ago now) I was similarly whacked out by my experiences, yet I couldn't even begin to imagine loving other beings in the world. Now my heart is fully open and the traumas I experienced in my youth have been fully processed and released. It looks so much better from the other side! Hang in there, dear boy. You will be okay.
When I was married to a psycho (at your age) I had a dog that I loved very much. The night I left I had to leave quickly and I couldn't take much with me. I was afraid for my life, you see. As I rushed through the house, gathering what I could as quickly as possible, the dog was following me with great agitation. He had his leash in his mouth. I was afraid if I took him my X would kill me and the dog. Perhaps it was irrational. I left the dog out of fear. It was my deepest regret. I felt the guilt of it for years.
So I understand, in a sense, how you feel about Clem. You will let it go in time, but know that Clem has likely already forgiven you and moved on to a better incarnation.
You are a very talented writer and you are on the right path.
Much love to you.
Kirsten
You have been here such a short time and yet I can see it's been very difficult. You would probably not have experienced so much catalyst unless you were quite advanced, but I realize it is hard to know that as you wear the veil.
I just wanted to tell you that when I was your age (years ago now) I was similarly whacked out by my experiences, yet I couldn't even begin to imagine loving other beings in the world. Now my heart is fully open and the traumas I experienced in my youth have been fully processed and released. It looks so much better from the other side! Hang in there, dear boy. You will be okay.
When I was married to a psycho (at your age) I had a dog that I loved very much. The night I left I had to leave quickly and I couldn't take much with me. I was afraid for my life, you see. As I rushed through the house, gathering what I could as quickly as possible, the dog was following me with great agitation. He had his leash in his mouth. I was afraid if I took him my X would kill me and the dog. Perhaps it was irrational. I left the dog out of fear. It was my deepest regret. I felt the guilt of it for years.
So I understand, in a sense, how you feel about Clem. You will let it go in time, but know that Clem has likely already forgiven you and moved on to a better incarnation.
You are a very talented writer and you are on the right path.
Much love to you.
Kirsten