06-13-2015, 06:53 AM
I want to share a dream I had back in February of 2013 which I have now called "The Shadow Dream". Just a week or so prior to this dream I went cold turkey and abstained from my love affair with cannabis, the resin form of marijuana. It involved a lot of bed sweating and little sleep. I want to share the backdrop to this dream because my decision here was driven by my desire to face the self (again). It was a very short but powerful dream.
I awoke from sleeping (within my dream this is) and noticed that a Yorkshire Terrier dog was sitting on the floor looking at me from the bottom of my bed. I instantly looked at this dog with suspicion, it happened to be my least favourite type of dog. In response, this little dog showed its teeth at me. I was amused because I had always regarded these particular breeds as having 'little dog syndrome', as I termed it, so I gave a little growl in return.
This time the terrier gave a larger growl back at me and its mouth seemed to grow a little in size. "Oh"! I remember thinking, ""you want to play with me do you"? So this time I imagined myself to be a lion and gave it a death stare, accompanied by a much more convincing growl. This time I was met with something unexpected. The terrier replied with not only a more ferocious growl, but his jaw and teeth grew much bigger in size. Also, his head and jaw seemed to get a lot nearer and the best image to describe this would be the one presented in that 1994 film called "The Mask" starring Jim Carrey. This mask lands on a dogs head and it becomes grossly exaggerated. (albeit in a CGI way).
"Right"! I thought "the gloves are off"! How dare this puny, rabbit hunting creature (I adore rabbits) come into my bedroom and try to frighten me this way, and so I gave my absolute loudest and most ferocious roar as my final warning before I get out of bed and stamp on the little cretin.
Oh dear
I shouldn't have done that because immediately afterwards the dogs head grew soo big, his growl soo loud and his teeth became soo close that I woke up drenched in sweat. Now the first thing that spooked me here was the fact that the last time I had had a nightmare was when I was 9-10 years old. What the heck?!
Moving forward to now I fully realise that this dream was a test. Was I ready to love my shadow side? You see that little dog symbolised what I was actually frightened of the most and my disdain for it was merely a reflection of my fear/hatred of it. It had always baffled me how a dog so small could believe in posing a threat to me. I would boot the little s**t over the fence it it wanted a piece of me!
Carla spoke about this in her interview with Denise Wilbanks here (3.52 minutes in) and I watched this interview several months after this dream. She uses the wolf as the metaphor of our shadow side here and I believe Dion Fortune had a similar dream where her shadow was characterised by a wolf. Dion however chose to love the wolf in her dream, I however chose to fight mine.
So I failed the test, but I certainly got the message!
Finally though if anyone has yet to see this interview, it is well worth watching. Carla's essence, beingness shines through here and I have just had to dry my eyes again, such was the powerful reminder of accepting the parts of ourselves that we would prefer not to know about.
I love you Carla! (((
)))
I awoke from sleeping (within my dream this is) and noticed that a Yorkshire Terrier dog was sitting on the floor looking at me from the bottom of my bed. I instantly looked at this dog with suspicion, it happened to be my least favourite type of dog. In response, this little dog showed its teeth at me. I was amused because I had always regarded these particular breeds as having 'little dog syndrome', as I termed it, so I gave a little growl in return.
This time the terrier gave a larger growl back at me and its mouth seemed to grow a little in size. "Oh"! I remember thinking, ""you want to play with me do you"? So this time I imagined myself to be a lion and gave it a death stare, accompanied by a much more convincing growl. This time I was met with something unexpected. The terrier replied with not only a more ferocious growl, but his jaw and teeth grew much bigger in size. Also, his head and jaw seemed to get a lot nearer and the best image to describe this would be the one presented in that 1994 film called "The Mask" starring Jim Carrey. This mask lands on a dogs head and it becomes grossly exaggerated. (albeit in a CGI way).
"Right"! I thought "the gloves are off"! How dare this puny, rabbit hunting creature (I adore rabbits) come into my bedroom and try to frighten me this way, and so I gave my absolute loudest and most ferocious roar as my final warning before I get out of bed and stamp on the little cretin.
Oh dear
I shouldn't have done that because immediately afterwards the dogs head grew soo big, his growl soo loud and his teeth became soo close that I woke up drenched in sweat. Now the first thing that spooked me here was the fact that the last time I had had a nightmare was when I was 9-10 years old. What the heck?! Moving forward to now I fully realise that this dream was a test. Was I ready to love my shadow side? You see that little dog symbolised what I was actually frightened of the most and my disdain for it was merely a reflection of my fear/hatred of it. It had always baffled me how a dog so small could believe in posing a threat to me. I would boot the little s**t over the fence it it wanted a piece of me!
Carla spoke about this in her interview with Denise Wilbanks here (3.52 minutes in) and I watched this interview several months after this dream. She uses the wolf as the metaphor of our shadow side here and I believe Dion Fortune had a similar dream where her shadow was characterised by a wolf. Dion however chose to love the wolf in her dream, I however chose to fight mine.
So I failed the test, but I certainly got the message!
Finally though if anyone has yet to see this interview, it is well worth watching. Carla's essence, beingness shines through here and I have just had to dry my eyes again, such was the powerful reminder of accepting the parts of ourselves that we would prefer not to know about.
I love you Carla! (((
)))
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