(06-12-2015, 04:05 AM)tamaryn Wrote: Normally i would be putting much more effort into posting but right now i am running out of sleep, but i need to stay awake for some work i am doing.
hehe i can feel its def getting to me, lighthead
Anyway, yes I wish Ra would have explained more of the negative path. Particularly their chakra work they are constantly doing. The more developed or insightful ones on the left hand path need to pour all of their energy into developing contact with intelligent infinity and inner clarity, while at the same time blocking out the lowers. Sounds pretty laborious to me.
I like what you wrote about discernment and fine reactions to stimuli. Its as if I am now working with an ocean of intense catalyst with relative comfort whereas before I would only be able to process little bits and work my way into psychotic breaks. The universe really does dole out exactly what you need
I was experimenting with STS stuff as everyone knows by now. But I didn't like it. I was getting some weird nightmares. And I was getting this weird ball of rage that felt really unpleasant. I realized that it's not for me. I would only recommend that path if 1) you resonate with that path energetically or B. if you're really determined and are able to fight through all that "unpleasantry" that comes with it at first.
One nightmare in particular left me physically disgusted for days. I can't handle that s***. That s*** is for the birds.