Forced Balancing or Forced Repression?

[tamaryn]

Lately I have been exploring my potential to balance with difficult and highly confusing experience. My tendency of the past was along the lines of forcing a love/understanding sensation to overwhelm my focus.

Now obviously looking back this is over compensation of love to a certain degree, yet I felt always there was more of this practice to be explored. There is a deeper meaning to letting ourselves exaggerate our desire or our repressed feelings.

Let us then examine our catalyst for any personal resistance. We can exaggerate this discord into further negative exploration in order that the desire may be released (like an enourmous bubble being popped); the emotional charge grounded upward into our hearts.

When we feel such a strong desire to balance our love/wisdom indeed this potential must be further explored (strengthening of 4th and 5th chakras).

But to what suffering do we all go through attempting to "polarize" or make our thoughts "correct" ?

I think we have too much fear in our hearts and especially our minds to understand the real virtues of negativity and desire. Particularly the exploration of any thought or feeling with resistance.

For example may we allow ourselves to vividly imagine a torture fantasy. If one were to actually not be afraid of the thought of this and allow oneself to open all of their senses to the exploration of this, I believe we would find ourselves very relieved and the original thought transformed into something understandable and beautiful.

Open yourselves to the light in the darkness and the darkness in the light. They are none to fear as they all potentiate in duality the desired transformation of the spirit. What ever way that may be.


For shits and giggles i drew a tarot cart to symbolize this thread:
The Hierophant - Significator of Mind



Also, would it be a stretch to try and clear up our definitions of love and wisdom? How do you define love? How do you define wisdom?