Rules of this place

[Minyatur]

What are the actual rules of this place? I seem to have a problem with rules in my mind.

Let's say my higher self wants to create a nuclear-like blast within the core of my body. 

Is there something or someone able to prevent it?

Your higher self exists at a place of contact where individuated selfhood meets nonindividuate impersonal oneness, thus this is not a desire that it would have.  So, it is like the place right before non ego.  Thus, it doesn't have many personal desires of its own.  Rather, it exists in a state of devotion to its past self, whom it is assisting as part overall balancing energy structure to guide it through the densities.  It assists its past self by helping it to learn, in free will, those lessons requisite for passage to the next spectrum of consciousness.

However, if it did desire that, it has crazy amounts of magical/psychic power, it could blow you to smithereens if it wanted to.  It would just never do that.  It would serve no useful function to it whatsoever.

I meant more my unveiled self, I call it higher self.

My first thought was that I could become some God of destruction and blow everything up and then I thought someone would banish me from this place quite fast.

Then I thought about a manner of doing the most impact before being forced out and the way seemed to make a huge explosion within myself. Not that I have this ability, but I'm sure if I let myself awaken fully I could.

But it's contrary as to why I came here, I came to be a better person but it's hard. Everyone get to care about you when you don't ask for it, everybody intrepret anything you do as hurtful all the time. I have to learn to weight the impacts of everything that I do and this seems tiresome. 

I think that's why I can't go in higher positive densities, I'd be like an uncontrollable fire tornado mirroring things others do not want to be mirrored despite not having ill intents.

It's annoying to hurt others while not having the intent to do so.