Growing weary

[Berilac Sandydowns]

I'm very familiar with what you're going through Matt1. Don't let my join date fool ya'. I just turned 57 and have been a Seeker for around 45 years.
One of the first magazines I ever bought was about UFOs and it had articles about Project Blue Book. Until lost in a recent move, I still had a FATE magazine I bought new in 1971.
I could go on and on with the searching I've done.
Seems I was born with that splinter in my mind.
Always looking for that One System that was going to make all the pieces fall into place.
It's been a very long process.
But I believe it was necessary.
So that when I finally found The Truth, I would recognize it and be able to COMMIT to it 100%. Heart and Soul.
I know the dictionary definition of commitment. But I've never actually FELT it. Never trusted any other body of knowledge like I trust the Ra .... template.

So when I recently realized I trusted this information and accepted it as The Truth, committing to it was a small, but huge step.
And since doing that I'm amazed with what is happening. It's like all this stuff I had been trying to piece together all started rushing into place.
Synchronicities. Intense dreams. A feeling of connectedness.
haha even my neighbor's snotty teen daughter gave me a big smile and a wave yesterday.

It WORKS!
Sometimes even to the point of some discomfort when it keeps proving how Real it is.
I fully understand Ra and Q'uo making a point to "carefully" develope.

Faith has incredible power. Way beyond the mere intelectual.
So I'm really excited about what is happening.
Looking forward to Working with this and discovering just what can be done with it. And what it does to me.

Committing has been an extraordinary turning point for me.