Law of One vs Polarity... Law of One?

[Minyatur]

I'd think that an STS person would be more well off. Am I right about that?

Ra: I am Ra. A negatively oriented individual mind/body/spirit complex will ordinarily program for wealth, ease of existence, and the utmost opportunity for power. Thus many negative entities burst with the physical complex distortion you call health.

However, a negatively oriented entity may choose a painful condition in order to improve the distortion toward the so-called negative emotive mentations such as anger, hatred, and frustration. Such an entity may use an entire incarnative experience honing a blunt edge of hatred or anger so that it may polarize more towards the negative or separated pole.

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that's Ra's understanding of things.  We choose the birth circumstances that are most in consonance with our life goals.

I seem to have a lot of really hard catalyst in my life. Some catalyst in my life is much more similar to other catalyst in my life. But the bottom line is that that bold statement doesn't really apply to me at all. My life is not really easy in any respect. The only thing easy about it is that I don't work (because I'm disabled), and I've had the good fortune of being acquainted with fascinating spiritual concepts such as is found in the LOO material. But the fact that I don't work doesn't really make me feel that I'm leading a meaningful existence.

So it seems that I am, at heart, an STO being. Based solely on an examination of the circumstances of my life.

What about the non-bolded part?

That applies to me too. I have a mental illness and have ostearthritis that doctors are at a loss to explain. I'm too young and I never had a stress injury to that part of my body (or my leg in general). But just the raw amount of hard catalyst makes me doubt that I'm negative at my core.

Well there may be exploring negative emotions without being negative at the core.