I think Ra hasn't gone through a 3D like our own. His experience is probably what you would seek, a harmonious set of desires which graduate rapidly toward the density of Love. He probably dislike the state of this earth and it challenges him in many ways just like we ourselves are challenged by it. The reason you are here and not in such a world is probably because your inner darkness does not resonate with such a world. To attain positive densities you must first heal yourself, undistort yourself and transmute of all of your inner darkness into light and love.
About your higher desires, they are your past which you may be trying to forget which is also part of those desires (you never get away from them). But to forget works only for a time and once it's purpose is done your awareness of yourself grows. You are not unlike your higher self, you are your higher self in limited awareness of itself. You are confused in a strange world and you know not the depths of your own soul. (This is very true for myself and is a work in progress)
There would be only one alternative to being here and that alternative is nothingness. Beingness implies experience and all experiences are created by us. By not being the Creator could've escaped knowing the darkness He could create. But we did want to be, we wanted to be ourselves and we wanted to be among others.
If I remember correctly you've said you thought you were upon the negative path. Have you thought your higher self may hold partially responsible itself for the state of this world and what you experience is in some way your own self-given retribution? Also as much as you do not want to be here, were you to leave you may simply want to come back once more.
You could say the purpose in term of evolution is that, if this was not, Love would not be known.
About your higher desires, they are your past which you may be trying to forget which is also part of those desires (you never get away from them). But to forget works only for a time and once it's purpose is done your awareness of yourself grows. You are not unlike your higher self, you are your higher self in limited awareness of itself. You are confused in a strange world and you know not the depths of your own soul. (This is very true for myself and is a work in progress)
There would be only one alternative to being here and that alternative is nothingness. Beingness implies experience and all experiences are created by us. By not being the Creator could've escaped knowing the darkness He could create. But we did want to be, we wanted to be ourselves and we wanted to be among others.
If I remember correctly you've said you thought you were upon the negative path. Have you thought your higher self may hold partially responsible itself for the state of this world and what you experience is in some way your own self-given retribution? Also as much as you do not want to be here, were you to leave you may simply want to come back once more.
You could say the purpose in term of evolution is that, if this was not, Love would not be known.