Aid in Catalyst

[Billy]

What is your goal with meditation?

To learn?  To seek.  To discover?

Definitely to seek.  But I don't really know what in seeking for.  I figured the meditations would just direct me and in time I'd find my very own way internally to follow.

I do over complicate these things so much though...I make it this big thing i need to do.  Then when Im tryingto the nitpicking of my self frustrates me and iinterferes.

I wonder if meditating with another would be better for me...naw i should lern this alone.  Or. Independently perhaps would be a better word.

If your having trouble meditating by yourself why not try it in a group setting?  This may just lay the foundation for your own individual practise.  Also, have you tried guided meditations?  I think those are a really good place to start and there are heaps of really good ones online.  My favourite channel is called 'the honest guys' who can be found on youtube.  Best of luck with everything.