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[Billy]

As much as I don't like to admit it, as I like to believe myself a mature person, I sometimes get scared about whether I will harvest or not.  Maybe that is selfish I don't know.

I used to think that way when I first read the LOO. But the way I think about it now, we have an eternity to master our lessons. Why not just take our time?

That's what I think, there's no rush just infinity lying ahead. Better to enjoy the ride.

The thing is you can get stuck with this sort of mentality and use it to justify not doing anything or changing yourself.  I feel like maybe I tend to do that in order to avoid lessons and discomfort.