05-15-2015, 01:23 AM
@Observer
Nice. I agree, it feels good to be clear. Thats awesome man, keep up the meditation. Im finding my mind is still re-orienting itself to sobriety. I have a tendency to get carried away in thought when I smoke. I still meditated and grew spiritually but it was under the influence of a mind altering substance. This could be just me...but my being was screaming to make it stop and just be clear. It can be really disorienting being under the influence of mind altering substance that consistently and that long. I mean I had no T-breaks. I find it messes with the reward system of the brain. Its nice to feel more firmly "planted"/grounded. I have a more solid stable base to work from now. I am looking forward to my short term memory coming back. I am finding there are definitely lingering effects that will take time to be cleansed. Not that I think weed is bad...just 1. I abused it 2. I got lost in it. I wasn't always lost in it but I was lost frequently enough for it to make me want to stop. I had gotten into growing it all and the whole nine...gave the remaining ounce to my neighbor on impulse...just wanted it to be gone. If I can't maintain balance with it, I don't want it around. I have much to learn working with the sober mind/natural states of being. No point in running away anymore.
Nice. I agree, it feels good to be clear. Thats awesome man, keep up the meditation. Im finding my mind is still re-orienting itself to sobriety. I have a tendency to get carried away in thought when I smoke. I still meditated and grew spiritually but it was under the influence of a mind altering substance. This could be just me...but my being was screaming to make it stop and just be clear. It can be really disorienting being under the influence of mind altering substance that consistently and that long. I mean I had no T-breaks. I find it messes with the reward system of the brain. Its nice to feel more firmly "planted"/grounded. I have a more solid stable base to work from now. I am looking forward to my short term memory coming back. I am finding there are definitely lingering effects that will take time to be cleansed. Not that I think weed is bad...just 1. I abused it 2. I got lost in it. I wasn't always lost in it but I was lost frequently enough for it to make me want to stop. I had gotten into growing it all and the whole nine...gave the remaining ounce to my neighbor on impulse...just wanted it to be gone. If I can't maintain balance with it, I don't want it around. I have much to learn working with the sober mind/natural states of being. No point in running away anymore.
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