Aid in Catalyst

[Indigo Light]

My catalyst is that I have trouble transforming into the anthro that I desire to be.
I am working on my belief system.
It causes me a little despair, because I cannot be what I wish to be.
But I am working on that. Believing that *anything* is possible.

I'm going to be honest with you and I am really sorry if this is offensive to you in anyway, I intend to use it as an example to bridge from.

I have a friend who is into a fetish where he basically switches his gender to female as closely as he can and partakes as the one who is penetrated in the act by a normal male person.  Without being anymore tmi as I can be--

Why not just 'Be' an Anthro as closely as you can?  I had a large furry group in my high school, and the dogma on them was the misunderstanding of the furry fetish as others understood it (dressing up in animal costumes and having wild orgies in the middle of nowhere) so one day I did decide to get to know them.  A few of them tried very hard to retain their 'identity' as such through physical means including letting their nails grow, wearing tails and ears, especially the girls who integrated them into their wardrobe.  Letting their hair grow...  There advice for living was simply to groom yourself for professional places and partake in worldly affairs as you would be required to in human form (don't show up to work with a tail and ears I'd imagine), but when you're home, or even out on your free time... Or just during any time where it is not an issue, why not just attempt to try and Be?  Integrate it in if your desire for it is strong enough that you feel you need it to be that way.  Get some ears and a tail even if it sounds odd, if this is your desire, I say seek it out.  That is the reason for 3rd Density after all to a distorted sense.  To reach towards your desires.

I want a garden, right?  But I live in Arizona, where the ground is...  A foot of dust and dry dead dirt, followed by harder condensed ground, referred to as Indian Clay out here.  I dug through that with a shovel on my free time.  I have compost buckets going right now to try and liven up the dirt.  I water the dirt often hoping it'll incite bacterial growth, make the soil a bit more nutritional for when I add the compost to begin growing a garden to move towards a healthier diet for me and my Mom, while retaining some money to have extra spending for essentials which I never can afford all of them so it's an inventory game of seeing what I need and will need and don't need.

I mean.  I don't really know much else to say regarding your desire to be an anthro.  It's almost like my friend who wants to be a girl but is a guy.  Who realistically can't get a sex change, attempts to just be as he desires to be.

That is my motto after all.  Be as you Will Be, Be as you Desire to Be.  Don't let society stop you, OR your mother!  It's your body, and it's your life.  If you desire to be an anthro, partake in the joys of 'Being' one as best you can.  And truly, imagination is not always needed.  Sometimes just trying to be is good enough, and can be synonymous to actually being something through doing what you need to do to feel as if you are, in this instance, an anthro.

I like to think anything is possible too.  Though I must concede defeat, that my interior universe will never be real during this life time in a way that I can experience it externally.  That I will never have a loving succubus wife (don't judge~), or experience reality as an Anime...Or experience reality becoming like an anime.

I'll never see my video game ideas reach a console nor will I ever have the chance to experience many teenager joys I missed out on, or any young adult life joys I'm missing out on.

I have a horribly so real and finite existence that I must mold to my desires that at times aren't physically, seemingly, logically, possible.  But hey, I had a character in a book who left his universe for another one after experiencing continued endless disappointments in life.  If it is possible, I've experienced it in mind only, but perhaps that is all that is needed.

The Mind does formulate your version of reality out of this consensus reality.  Why not attempt to be an Anthro, in this universe?  Instead of you manifesting yourself into another Universe, manifest the other Universe towards yourself.  Or more practically speaking in terms of what you can literally do.  Attempt to move the Universe around you, rather than You around the Universe.  Bring the Anthro to you in mind, attempt to be the Anthro physically in this universe through your mind.  Bring the Anthro to you by moving into it through your mind I guess is the most straight way of putting it.

What is your belief system?

And I'm really sorry if I said anything offensive or out of line.  I'm not actually that knowledgeable about the area you prefer, I'm just trying to help with whatever I have in my mind that might be of aid.  In this case, you Desire to Be something you are not.  I have a friend who is similar.  He just tries his best to be what he wants to be when he can be.  And he says it works well enough, so that's my advice.

Be as you Desire to Be, physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, however is necessary for you to once more enjoy your Self fully.

I agree with van here gem, get out and be brother. What my main thought on your general wish towards being anthro Is this. How would being an anthro change anything on Earth other then astethics? Do you find yourself not pleasing? Possibly this is where a imbalance persists within us.

Van- You made some statements about being really confined, and seemingly impoverished. I am impoverished myself, and feel close to what you stated. I am currently working on feeling gratitude for all that I partake in. I hope you find love, peace, and all that your looking for on this journey through oneself.