05-05-2015, 02:58 PM
(05-05-2015, 11:04 AM)VanAlioSaldo Wrote: So I almost cannot comprehend how "It's twisted love at it's roots is just as pure as a bright love" can make any sense in the absence of being able to perceive Love at all. Which is the issue. I didn't even comprehend a real feeling of unconditional love until my son was born. I have a friend who's told me he has no idea what Love is or feels like. The Ra Material itself invoked a different kind of feeling of Love in me that I had perceived as never feeling before in my life. I felt maternal love from my ex's mom more so than from my own mom. I enjoyed her family's love more so than I had ever enjoyed my own.
Twisted love has the same root as any love, take any person you'd think highly of like Jesus or anyone and picture that their core is also the core of the worse human you could think of. The same Creator is being both "opposites".
I do think unconditional love transcend both polarities which are both conditional in themselves. It's what this whole octave is about working toward.
I would not worry so much, a good exercise from Ra is to see the Creator within self and the Creator within other-selves. You see that you are ever perfect just as other-selves also are you being ever perfect through them. Love and Hate are a duality to be worked upon, just as self versus other-selves. 7D seems to be where you exist not for self but only for other-selves, which is why it is referred to as the loss of individuality. You have no more desires for self.
About loneliness, you make me think of my sister to whom I didn't have much to say other than that love of self is the first step. If you feel you do not attract as much love as you think you should, maybe you are yourself not loving yourself enough. My sister is also someone with much love to give and usually feels she has no one to give this love to. I say it starts with self, then the rest will flow from it.