The Tired Philosopher.

[third-density-being]

Hello Dear Joe,

First of all Thank You for Sharing.

You had really hard and difficult life and I think it should be acknowledged that You’ve done Amazing work to find your-Self in current point/place in your life. I realize it wasn’t “straight line” for You and that most often You haven’t seen “good/positive” aspect of your life-Journey, but there is something within You, that made You survive all that and to reach the point of offering Love to Other-Selves. That alone is uncanny and I would like You to know, that I do acknowledging it.

Below I’ve putted couple of quotes from your post that I would like to comment on:

When I got into the sessions on archetypes, something happened. I was becoming aware of Life as suddenly feeling Dream Like. Even to this day I get those times where everything is painstakingly hard to differentiate from a Dream like reality.

I’ve never had an extended experience like that, but I do have sometimes “glimpses” of such perception. Suddenly the entire World/Reality become unreal and I find difficult to physically operate within it. It’s almost as my Consciousness is “pulling out” of this reality and I feel extremely vast and unspeakable “background” that overwhelms me. I usually get such experience when I have to be focused and operate efficiently in this reality, so I usually try to shake it off after couple of seconds – and I always do.
My point is, that I do know this feeling and it is something unique. I’m not sure what are your feelings about it, but for me those are positive experiences, even though the timing isn’t fortunate for exploring them (so far anyway).

I do believe myself to be of 6th Density, I do honestly hope I'm a part of the Ra Social Memory Complex since for some reason, their words just sound like my own, their concepts all, every single one, rings true for me. As I first read the Ra Material I actually cried because I felt like I had finally found something True and Real. I mean, I bawled my eyes out at one point. The relief of suddenly knowing I have never been alone, in a life FULL of being alone. I realized being Alone was an illusion. I mean, seriously, the word ALONE is in itself ALL ONE put together again. I had this massive desire to continue the Ra Contact for some reason, though I honestly doubt I ever will get the chance to.

You’ve described, in my opinion, a very profound Experience with The Law of One. When I was reading The Law of One for the first time, I also had feelings that “I already knew that” or that this Knowledge is “The Truth”. But it didn’t touched me so deeply as It did You.

Why do You think, that You won’t be able to continue Ra contact? Who says You cannot?
Draw as much as You can from Don/Carla/Jim Complex Experiences – if You honestly wish to try, find Other-Selves for this Quest. RA require a Group of Beings that are One voice, One Desire in Service to Others. Pursue this, if YOU feel You want/desire it.

I am seeking and I oh so desperately, so badly, BADLY wish I could just know my name. If I could afford it I'd do age regression hypnosis to peer into my pre-incarnative state to at the very least, learn my name. I do not know what this obsession of knowing my soul name is all about, but for some reason it drives me. As does the belief that the Law of One is truly more expansive and involving than Ra let's on.

“Name” is not You. RA comment on that at the occasion of Don ‘s question about the “Council of Saturn”:

(7.9)
Questioner: I have a question about that Council. Who are the members,
and how does the Council function?

Ra: I am Ra. The members of the Council are representatives from the
Confederation and from those vibratory levels of your inner planes bearing
responsibility for your third density. The names are not important because
there are no names. Your mind/body/spirit complexes request names and
so, in many cases, the vibratory sound complexes which are consonant with
the vibratory distortions of each entity are used. However, the name
concept is not part of the Council. If names are requested, we will attempt
them. However, not all have chosen names.
(…)

RA also said, that “names” are usually picked – if needed – and they correspond with “vibrations of an Entity”. So maybe your longings for your “true name” is in fact a longing for something different – something incomprehensible in this reality, and thus described by label/word “name”. I think this may be something far deeper/vaster than it appears to be – in other words, You may be looking for something more than “just” your “designation”.

I am Love and Light, and you cannot injure that which I am, you cannot destroy me or ruin me. I am not muddied and soiled or broken and destroyed. I am the Creator and the Created. I am not unlike you, but I am also unique and different from you. Yet we are all similar, if not, nearly the same.

I really like how You’ve expressed it. I think above is something, that Everyone should read and take it to Heart. This is a Manifesto of a Self-Conscious Creator.
Thank You for that.

And I honestly guess if I had any regret right now in my life... It'd be one thing. I had a cat named Clem, who passed away literally a few months before I awoke. I did not treat my Clem very well when I was a child, since we grew up together. And honestly I know, I know I could have given him so much more love.
(...)
But then there's Clem. Who, because I simply just did not pet him enough and give him enough attention, I find myself still crying about how much more I could have done for him as a consciousness. I personally feel like I failed myself in that aspect, a reminder that I must still forgive myself for that, but just don't want to right now simply because it's not time.

Do not regret but instead be Grateful for that Clem was part of your life. He was there for You and You was there for Him. You both chosen your lives and agreed to participate in this experience before You were present in this Reality. What happened, was necessary and it served it ‘s purpose.
Besides form what You’ve wrote, Clem is still influencing You and best You can do right now, is to Honored Him by constructively using/integrating your experiences with Him, in your current and future life (i.e. as You wrote, to respect and do no harm to second and first density Beings).

Productive for my level of climbing/learning

I’m Glad You’ve used additional word/label to describe your Understanding/Feeling of “learning process”. “Climbing” indicates forceful “pulling Self up”.

I Understand/Feel label/process of learning differently. It is very hard to express in words, therefore I’ll use imperfect analogy.
All experiences/knowledge/understanding that I’m gaining – in many, many different fields of activity, spheres of life – is like a “water filling a container”, where “container” is my “capacity for growth in this existence”. I, my Consciousness, my-Self, is on the surface of the water and It “is raised” by raising water level within above mentioned “container”.

I’m uncertain if I wrote above in understandable fashion – it’s like putting a light object into a bucket – when You pouring the water into the bucket, this light object (a Conscious/Self form example above) is rising together with level of water surface. Not forcefully, but “naturally”, together with the “flow of Experience/Knowledge/Understanding”.

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As always – all above is only my opinion and an imperfect attempt to Serve You best I can.


All I have Best in me for You