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[Shemaya]

A few hours ago, I had an intense experience yet again. It's almost like posting this topic has triggered it. However, I got neither orgasms nor pleasure this time.

I was lying on my bed, and felt like something was about to happen. I just relaxed and welcomed the experience. Shortly thereafter some kind of dense energy field embraced me, almost displacing my soul. This happened before as well, and both times I thought I was dying. I am at a lack of words to describe what I felt. Eventually I relaxed and felt peaceful, giving thanks to the Creator for about half an hour (it's hard to ascertain how long it lasted)

@Shemaya

I haven't heard to Kundalini awakening before. I'll have to look it up.

Thanks for taking the time to respond. I appreciate the Ra quotes as well.

I have been learning as I go.  The intense ecstatic experiences are catalyst to work through.  You can see that your thoughts and response to the energy direct the experience.  That is very much part of the learning, that you are in control, and your awareness of the catalyst and self-acceptance, is a very big part of the process, in fact is the process. 

About the lower astral beings, that was the first thing I suspected. I don't understand why they would want to nourish themselves on our energy. Can't they generate their own energy themselves?


That being said, I remember reading about Shadow Self on this forum.

"The Shadow Self is the part of yourself you find unacceptable or don't acknowledge." -Yera

When the ecstatic experiences of mine peaked about a year ago, I was trying to abandon masturbation as I thought it was sinful. Presumably as a result, I was plagued by lustful dreams followed by full body orgasms in a half awake state. Sometimes I would feel as if something was touching my penis, which gave me an orgasm very quickly. So I can't help but think my Shadow Self was involved in at least some of these experiences.

Understand that your thoughts and thought- forms  are there because of your religious conditioning.  This is catalyst to work through. The Shadow is there for us to love and accept if we are on the path of love. I think this also means that we have a choice to walk in the light.  There is nothing sinful or dark about our sexual nature, sexual ecstasy, or our body's ability to experience pleasure.  It is a matter of energy and neurotransmitters that flood our brain and blood when these experiences happen.  Neurotransmitters like oxytocin, endorphins, bliss molecules.  These chemicals make us feel good, and we are creatures that thrive when feeling good.

If you use this experience to heal your body, grow in self- acceptance and awareness , I think it it very positive.

But if it drives you to , for example, become obsessed with pornography, or lust for a married woman, then these things will hold you back on a path of service- to- others.  These are distractions and will slow your process to reaching your highest potential.