I feel consciousness getting lighter

[Minyatur]

4D energies are bringing up some subconscious things that I have to deal with. Making me very nervous.
I don't feel that much of a lightbeing, certainly not a wayshower or a lightworker.
I might not be able to survive full 4D light.
As it grows, it gets harder for me to be here. I am somewhat dark in my thinking.
Full of perversions.

When you speak of perversions, what I see is shame. Shame is the only problem as it is rejection of self and it is what is not consonant with 4D as you become open in your thoughts toward others. You're directly or indirectly afraid of a telepathic link with others in short.

I only worried about it when I read that perversions are caused by demons. I didn't believe in demons before.

A telepathic connection with everyone would actually be freeing, because then I wouldn't have any judgment.

Demons are other-selves with whom you resonate. If you want to label them negatively it is your choice.