Looking at Despair

[Bluebell]

thanks Diana. do u have a black hole of horror inside u too?

I have the feeling of a black hole. I have met my 6-yr-old self in a dream years ago, sleeping under the house I grew up in, in a pristine room, and I was lead there by some spirit guide who dug it out. I asked her to come with me but she said she didn't want to wake up. I knew there was a room beyond with my 13-yr-old self. 

So yeah, there are some black holes in my childhood that I can't seem to emerge from yet. Little by little though, thin layers seem to get peeled away. 

fascinating. maybe ur a phantom future of this 6 yo... where she is, u evaporated when she woke up.