07-19-2010, 12:06 AM
" You are a Starchild"* She Said...
Since i learned how to read, i consumed all things metaphysical, supernatural..and out of the oridnary. Does anyone remember the books "Man, Myth & Magic"? I would go to the library after school, and check them out, until i had read every one of them. I was obsessed with werewolves, vampires..ghosts, ....the devil.
It seems when i first started exploring, the things that drew me were dark. This is one of the things i have not come across with other wanderer's stories..(hopefully this information may help others who have struggled with these issues, and i say to them..do not be ashamed or afraid to come forward)...I even went as far as finding a ritual in one of those books for dedicating my soul to Satan...I renounced Jesus, then proceeded to cutting my tounge, drinking my blood, reciting and performing as best i could the ritual, and then sitting back... and waiting to see what happened. I was about 11 years old. I didnt know what i was doing...i have asked forgivness for those actions alot over the years. After i did that at age 11..., was a period of spiritual stasis...until i was 18. Then came books on NDE's, UFO's and past life regressions. ( never had one, but would love to!) So once again, i started feeding my spirit knowledge.
Then came Paganism and Wicca. I was getting closer...the unity with the earth and nature & animals. Magic, vibrations...intent.
In 1996 I went to my second ever Tarot card reading. My sister was there with me...I was 23. She touched on alot of things, she was very good. She own's The "Wildflowers" shop in South Charleston, WV. At the end, she proceeded to say to me..." You are a starchild"..." you often had feelings of being homesick"..of course.. my heart stopped DEAD...and i didnt say anything.. She told me i am not from Earth. Well..of course i thought.. this lady has LOST hold on the rope of reality!! after i left there, is when i went to my mom and asked her if she remembered me saying i was homesick, and she verified it. But, i still didn't do any research into what she said, and thought it was rubbish...i didn't dare delve into those old memories. It scared me.
The SECOND time i was told this..(I lived in Massachusetts)...was when the Ra Material was made aware to me. In 2007. A guy that worked at the pet store with me... (i had to get a second job, and work weekends to make my mortgage). ..Asked me if i was a lightworker, or just a really positive person. Well, we got to talking and he introduced me to the Law of One. I didn't pick it right up at first....i printed the entire first & second books..and read it here and there...getting some of it, but mostly getting a headache! It was not until after i moved BACK to West Virginia ( my home state) in Sept. of 2008 that for some reason, i picked it back up..and understood it. Not only did i understand it... but there were instances where... I would NOT be reading it... and would have thoughts...then pick it up later to read..the EXACT thing that i was thinking!
Example: My cats... i was laying in bed..and just watching them one day..and suddenly i saw they each had a "color" associated to them.... it was the personality of each cat, showing through via a ribbon of color. Then the thought occurred to me... they are lesser entities. We are here to teach them, and to help them...just like the Ra Complex is here to help us. And either later that day..or a couple days later... i started to read the Ra material..and whatever it was i read.. was like verifying what i had thought.
The more i read of the Ra material...the more i realize.. it's things i already knew, or know instinctively. Alot of it, i can't say all of it.. i have not read any volume completely as of yet.
So many other things....
in 2003, i'm not sure what was happening, I would feel an immense "Pulling" on top of my head... it felt as if someone or something were trying to pull ME .. out of myself.. it happened a few times...when i was asleep...and i woudl try to wake up and fight it off... It scared me so much, i tried to research it.. but could not find anything on it. It was after working with the tarot, and calling upon and using energy...once again..not realizing what i was fooling with.
* How 11:11 gave me the In YOUR FACE, cosmic smackdown*
I put it that way, because If my higher self ever wanted me to sit up and take notice..(because i am pretty much oblivious to everything going on around me as a rule)..it would HAVE to set my cosmic alarm clock in a way that would mae me drop my jaw...and it did.
2004-2005 I started having dreams of 11:11... right before sleep..images would pop into my mind. So would voices. In the space between sleep and being awake... yes.. i hear voices. It's as if someone is turning a radio dial...and i only pick up some things that are said..some are louder than others..just a word or a phrase here and there... sometimes.. it's as if someone gets close to my ear and says my name...just as i'm falling asleep. I found that smoking pot drowns it out... anyway.. 11:11 dreams...a couple of times.. i just figured it was some kind of message...not sure what tho...i had never heard about it being "a wake up call"... untill...
We moved into a new Apartment. I had the SAME Alarm clock i had owned and used for 2 YEARS. I will also ad, that i was really working on my spirituality at that point... well.. One morning i woke up late for work. I clicked on the alarm clock and it was set for 11:11...then i was like.. CRAP! i must have switched it over to my husbands alarm side..so i clicked over to HIS..and again..11:11.
That night before bed... i re set the clock...i re set my husbands side, and thought to ask him if he had changed it at some point.. he said no...(at the time he was NOT even home, he was working around the clock plowing snow) it happened again. I dont remember if it was BOTH sides again, but i KNOW MY SIDE was Changed to 11:11 again..i was late for work again..and told my friend Yvonne about it..and was convinced the girl who lived upstairs was coming into my apartment to change it.. during the day when i was at work.. My friend asked me if maybe the power was going out... i said no, and not to mention...it resets to 12:00!! not 11:11. So..after that happened a couple times... it stopped... and didnt happen again. Shortly after that, i was reading something online... and 11:11 subject came up and i read what it was all about.... I showed my friend and we were both like.. wow!.
Okay, i've written enough again..lol Any questions..feel free to ask..and as i stated before.. your input is greatly appreciated.
It feels really good to get these things out in the open...And even better if someone is lead to this forum/thread, and made aware of the calling into action of warriors of light<3
Thank you for being here<3
Since i learned how to read, i consumed all things metaphysical, supernatural..and out of the oridnary. Does anyone remember the books "Man, Myth & Magic"? I would go to the library after school, and check them out, until i had read every one of them. I was obsessed with werewolves, vampires..ghosts, ....the devil.
It seems when i first started exploring, the things that drew me were dark. This is one of the things i have not come across with other wanderer's stories..(hopefully this information may help others who have struggled with these issues, and i say to them..do not be ashamed or afraid to come forward)...I even went as far as finding a ritual in one of those books for dedicating my soul to Satan...I renounced Jesus, then proceeded to cutting my tounge, drinking my blood, reciting and performing as best i could the ritual, and then sitting back... and waiting to see what happened. I was about 11 years old. I didnt know what i was doing...i have asked forgivness for those actions alot over the years. After i did that at age 11..., was a period of spiritual stasis...until i was 18. Then came books on NDE's, UFO's and past life regressions. ( never had one, but would love to!) So once again, i started feeding my spirit knowledge.
Then came Paganism and Wicca. I was getting closer...the unity with the earth and nature & animals. Magic, vibrations...intent.
In 1996 I went to my second ever Tarot card reading. My sister was there with me...I was 23. She touched on alot of things, she was very good. She own's The "Wildflowers" shop in South Charleston, WV. At the end, she proceeded to say to me..." You are a starchild"..." you often had feelings of being homesick"..of course.. my heart stopped DEAD...and i didnt say anything.. She told me i am not from Earth. Well..of course i thought.. this lady has LOST hold on the rope of reality!! after i left there, is when i went to my mom and asked her if she remembered me saying i was homesick, and she verified it. But, i still didn't do any research into what she said, and thought it was rubbish...i didn't dare delve into those old memories. It scared me.
The SECOND time i was told this..(I lived in Massachusetts)...was when the Ra Material was made aware to me. In 2007. A guy that worked at the pet store with me... (i had to get a second job, and work weekends to make my mortgage). ..Asked me if i was a lightworker, or just a really positive person. Well, we got to talking and he introduced me to the Law of One. I didn't pick it right up at first....i printed the entire first & second books..and read it here and there...getting some of it, but mostly getting a headache! It was not until after i moved BACK to West Virginia ( my home state) in Sept. of 2008 that for some reason, i picked it back up..and understood it. Not only did i understand it... but there were instances where... I would NOT be reading it... and would have thoughts...then pick it up later to read..the EXACT thing that i was thinking!
Example: My cats... i was laying in bed..and just watching them one day..and suddenly i saw they each had a "color" associated to them.... it was the personality of each cat, showing through via a ribbon of color. Then the thought occurred to me... they are lesser entities. We are here to teach them, and to help them...just like the Ra Complex is here to help us. And either later that day..or a couple days later... i started to read the Ra material..and whatever it was i read.. was like verifying what i had thought.
The more i read of the Ra material...the more i realize.. it's things i already knew, or know instinctively. Alot of it, i can't say all of it.. i have not read any volume completely as of yet.
So many other things....
in 2003, i'm not sure what was happening, I would feel an immense "Pulling" on top of my head... it felt as if someone or something were trying to pull ME .. out of myself.. it happened a few times...when i was asleep...and i woudl try to wake up and fight it off... It scared me so much, i tried to research it.. but could not find anything on it. It was after working with the tarot, and calling upon and using energy...once again..not realizing what i was fooling with.
* How 11:11 gave me the In YOUR FACE, cosmic smackdown*
I put it that way, because If my higher self ever wanted me to sit up and take notice..(because i am pretty much oblivious to everything going on around me as a rule)..it would HAVE to set my cosmic alarm clock in a way that would mae me drop my jaw...and it did.
2004-2005 I started having dreams of 11:11... right before sleep..images would pop into my mind. So would voices. In the space between sleep and being awake... yes.. i hear voices. It's as if someone is turning a radio dial...and i only pick up some things that are said..some are louder than others..just a word or a phrase here and there... sometimes.. it's as if someone gets close to my ear and says my name...just as i'm falling asleep. I found that smoking pot drowns it out... anyway.. 11:11 dreams...a couple of times.. i just figured it was some kind of message...not sure what tho...i had never heard about it being "a wake up call"... untill...
We moved into a new Apartment. I had the SAME Alarm clock i had owned and used for 2 YEARS. I will also ad, that i was really working on my spirituality at that point... well.. One morning i woke up late for work. I clicked on the alarm clock and it was set for 11:11...then i was like.. CRAP! i must have switched it over to my husbands alarm side..so i clicked over to HIS..and again..11:11.
That night before bed... i re set the clock...i re set my husbands side, and thought to ask him if he had changed it at some point.. he said no...(at the time he was NOT even home, he was working around the clock plowing snow) it happened again. I dont remember if it was BOTH sides again, but i KNOW MY SIDE was Changed to 11:11 again..i was late for work again..and told my friend Yvonne about it..and was convinced the girl who lived upstairs was coming into my apartment to change it.. during the day when i was at work.. My friend asked me if maybe the power was going out... i said no, and not to mention...it resets to 12:00!! not 11:11. So..after that happened a couple times... it stopped... and didnt happen again. Shortly after that, i was reading something online... and 11:11 subject came up and i read what it was all about.... I showed my friend and we were both like.. wow!.
Okay, i've written enough again..lol Any questions..feel free to ask..and as i stated before.. your input is greatly appreciated.
It feels really good to get these things out in the open...And even better if someone is lead to this forum/thread, and made aware of the calling into action of warriors of light<3
Thank you for being here<3