07-18-2010, 09:29 PM
(This post was last modified: 07-18-2010, 09:54 PM by Godz Enigma.)
Thank you all for taking the time to comment. Thank you for your acceptance, and for having an open mind and open heart. Thank you for this refuge, and virtual library for all who are seeking... to find common experiences, feelings and situations. As well as an opportunity to grow and learn. <3 I'll Finish my story after I respond to your posts.
Josh C: just to clarify, it was not after a *pleasant* conversation with my x husband, i had come home to his usual hateful, dominating attitude, it was a defining moment after 8 years of abuse, when i ( as you correctly put it and yes, i do agree! ) poured out my heart, soul and my will ..to the universe, putting forth those convictions onto paper and asking for help.
Ali Quadir: Thank you. I plan on sticking around this time! haha! I've even remembered to put this forum in my favorites. lol Who has set my tail alight? The cleansing, white fire of God! =P
Fairyfarmgirl: Thank you for your blessings and your love. They are well received and much needed <3
Aaron: Thank you. <3
Gemini Wolf: Thank you for taking the time to read my coming out story. <3 Thank you as well, for recognizing the opening of my heart. That's exactly what this is for me personally. Yes, it has been a vice and a virtue throughoutt my life, knowing my *real* family is there for me, watching me, and guiding me. Do you dream of wolves, or have memories of being within a wolf family?
CircleofOne: Thank you for your input. It's interesting to know that your early memories are from a 3rd person perspective as well. Do you think that for wanderer's, it's a natural instinct to see ourselves, from outside ourselves? I've read places( self help books maybe even in the Ra material), that when working on yourself, it's a good practice to do that...( step outside yourself) And of course, i think when i read those things...but that's natural... doesn't everyone do that?
Unity100: When being outside in the daylight, i look up into the sky, and see millions of little points of light. It's as if i am seeing atoms moving, dancing, and just fluttering along...sometimes there are patterns. Sometimes, there are wavy, rainbow lines that appear as well....when i am at a heightened sense of awareness, and when my internal energy is very high ( don't know if i am saying this correctly..when my energy is radiating from me, from my hands and feet), this happens. I looked it up once, because i thought i had vertigo or something..lol But could not find any information that was even close to what i was seeing..until i came here one day..The post where this is discussed is here: http://bring4th.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=237
Namaste: Thank you for making me feel welcome. I can't honestly say yes to that. Meaning, i was not born with that sense towards JUST cats i don't think...It was not until i was 6-7 ( the age i was when i first really started to know i was not home) the neighborhood "Cat Lady" moved in, 2 doors down from us. I DID gravitate towards her, was at her house every day, bugging her by knocking at her door at all hours..just wanting to be near her cats! lol....at that time, i was learning to love and respect cats. =o) All animals to be exact. <3 Even today she is a very close friend. Now ..if you were able to look through the computer and see behind me, you would see three cat statues..LOL..and i have very special relationships with my own 3 cats. Kani, Loki & Max.
Questioner: I can't tell you how much i appreciate your response. To say that this is my time to "be heard with loving concern" ..touches my heart. The times that i have told people some of what i post here, it seems they would listen with curiosity and amusement. Not taking to heart what i am trying to convey, and how frustrating and painful of a ride it can be to have these memories and feelings. It's not their fault, and actually.. i have been able to transfer some of this knowledge, and in that..sowed a seed for some of the people i've touched. Thank you , again..and i do look forward to learning and sharing with you all.
Blessings to you and yours~
Godz~
Josh C: just to clarify, it was not after a *pleasant* conversation with my x husband, i had come home to his usual hateful, dominating attitude, it was a defining moment after 8 years of abuse, when i ( as you correctly put it and yes, i do agree! ) poured out my heart, soul and my will ..to the universe, putting forth those convictions onto paper and asking for help.
Ali Quadir: Thank you. I plan on sticking around this time! haha! I've even remembered to put this forum in my favorites. lol Who has set my tail alight? The cleansing, white fire of God! =P
Fairyfarmgirl: Thank you for your blessings and your love. They are well received and much needed <3
Aaron: Thank you. <3
Gemini Wolf: Thank you for taking the time to read my coming out story. <3 Thank you as well, for recognizing the opening of my heart. That's exactly what this is for me personally. Yes, it has been a vice and a virtue throughoutt my life, knowing my *real* family is there for me, watching me, and guiding me. Do you dream of wolves, or have memories of being within a wolf family?
CircleofOne: Thank you for your input. It's interesting to know that your early memories are from a 3rd person perspective as well. Do you think that for wanderer's, it's a natural instinct to see ourselves, from outside ourselves? I've read places( self help books maybe even in the Ra material), that when working on yourself, it's a good practice to do that...( step outside yourself) And of course, i think when i read those things...but that's natural... doesn't everyone do that?
Unity100: When being outside in the daylight, i look up into the sky, and see millions of little points of light. It's as if i am seeing atoms moving, dancing, and just fluttering along...sometimes there are patterns. Sometimes, there are wavy, rainbow lines that appear as well....when i am at a heightened sense of awareness, and when my internal energy is very high ( don't know if i am saying this correctly..when my energy is radiating from me, from my hands and feet), this happens. I looked it up once, because i thought i had vertigo or something..lol But could not find any information that was even close to what i was seeing..until i came here one day..The post where this is discussed is here: http://bring4th.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=237
Namaste: Thank you for making me feel welcome. I can't honestly say yes to that. Meaning, i was not born with that sense towards JUST cats i don't think...It was not until i was 6-7 ( the age i was when i first really started to know i was not home) the neighborhood "Cat Lady" moved in, 2 doors down from us. I DID gravitate towards her, was at her house every day, bugging her by knocking at her door at all hours..just wanting to be near her cats! lol....at that time, i was learning to love and respect cats. =o) All animals to be exact. <3 Even today she is a very close friend. Now ..if you were able to look through the computer and see behind me, you would see three cat statues..LOL..and i have very special relationships with my own 3 cats. Kani, Loki & Max.
Questioner: I can't tell you how much i appreciate your response. To say that this is my time to "be heard with loving concern" ..touches my heart. The times that i have told people some of what i post here, it seems they would listen with curiosity and amusement. Not taking to heart what i am trying to convey, and how frustrating and painful of a ride it can be to have these memories and feelings. It's not their fault, and actually.. i have been able to transfer some of this knowledge, and in that..sowed a seed for some of the people i've touched. Thank you , again..and i do look forward to learning and sharing with you all.
Blessings to you and yours~
Godz~