What keeps us from intelligent infinity?

[Minyatur]

I guess I willingly signed up to being limited when I signed up.

You have to realize your higher self might not want you to awaken totally and that could be what keeps you from intelligent infinity. Your high self want to learn things anew not just go back to how it really is.

I pierced most of my own veil yesterday and as I would, I realized a part deep down wanted it to last longer a bit longer. I broke it anyway and I felt that I may mostly have been wandering because I was bored and this feels like my 7th incarnation here and I'm just trying to figure out what needs to be figured out for myself. 

Anyway if you can't reach out to intelligent infinity, it may be because your higher self doesn't want to. Part of wandering is being cut off and in there may lie something you hope to learn. I feel that a truth about the evolution of counciousness is that it's freaking long, so just forgetting how old you are is a blessing in a way. it makes you care/appreciate small things.