My story.

[Phoenix]

Pheonix,

Thank you for sharing your story. My heart goes to you.
There is nothing I can say that wasn't already elegantly stated by 'Stranger', and 'Diana'. I think Stranger was exactly right with his comments regarding meditation.
I will say that I find your choice of name very interesting. It says to me that you have a desire to rise, but from what? The Pheonix rises from the ashes, but what are the "ashes" of your life from which you will rise?
These are questions that may require your contemplation.

Peace be with you Pheonix. Simply posting on this site is a step in seeking. Keep seeking and know that you are Loved here.
May you be lifted in Joy by the Love and Light of the Creator.

Dynamic Equilibriums post struck a deep chord although I don't know why.

Strangers comments have been very helpful. It is not sensible to forcibly meditate past a medical condition when you can easily, non destructively, alleviate the problem. But his take on the negative forces sounded true and puts my mind at ease.

I always related the Phoenix as a 'Don Elkins' synchronicity. Since I had the name Phoenix before I came here and other things in relation to this.

Secondly, most astrologers gasp when they see my astrology chart. I have the kind of chart that would experience the kind of things I have experienced. It has an awful lot of fire, and Phoenix could be another relation there as well.

There are other extremely bizarre set of synchronicities regarding this which take on a global nature. If you want to know about that part of it you could scroll back on my blog but you'll have to read through quite a lot of stuff to get down to what I'm talking about here.