Eternal Services - Closed

[Parsons]

I keep getting the words "tension, resistance" in my head. You said that you felt better after crying and having an emotional release, but then later the panic started to come back again. After your release, did you go right back to the other extreme of emotional control? My thought is perhaps emotional release needs to be a more consistent kind of thing, and you are probably releasing large amounts of emotions suppressed in your life. I can tell you from my own experience that it can take a long time to release and clear that out, especially after a life-times of the same habits.

I think I did somewhat go back into that mode. Now that I have had time to intellectually process the incident, I visualize an extremely dense ball of trapped emotional energy being released. As soon as I had released a large amount, I felt that I (mostly) returned to clamping it off but was able to stick my foot into the door and leave it somewhat open. I slept extremely well last night and when I woke up and listened to music while showering, I felt a colorful palette of emotions as each song came on instead of the usual gray scale. I can still feel a large mass of emotions that still needs to be expressed, but I can at least see its there now. I was also able to visualize new methods of managing my energy centers/conduits and was much more confident with my ability to adjust them.

I experience pain and tension in the exact same area you describe and actually in many cases I trace the charge back to other individuals so that is another possibility, that you are picking up energy from others and resisting to it.

Would you suggest absorbing it, processing it, and releasing it for them or attempting to shield myself from the emotional charges? Or a combination of the two? I also had an interesting visualization of allowing some of the excess solar plexus energy travel up to my heart, then release it to the world and everyone in it, like a beacon or lighthouse. I'm not sure if that is a responsible way to process some of the energy or if I should hold on to it and let it continue to flow up to my throat/third eye/crown.

The sensation I'm feeling is energy trying to travel from the solar plexus, to the heart, and through the throat, but the energy doesn't get released from the solar plexus, it gets caught rather than being expressed and released from the system. What do these areas mean to you? What do they correlate with in your mind?

To me, the solar plexus is my thoughts of people I know in my life and society. My heart is the universal love and forgiveness (or lack thereof) those same people. My throat is honesty, wisdom, and open communication to those same people.