12-04-2014, 07:36 PM
Hey all,
It has been a long time since I last came here.
Thanks for all the kind answers, especially the ones of GLB and third-density-being were rather helpful (all of you were).
I now decided to quit and leave this job, community and current country. Actually I was living away from Portugal, third-density-being, so Tamera was not the intentional community I was living in. As I travel I will look around. Like you suggested. But in first stage, I am returning to my home country. So, no clear plan, no job or source of income, no clear vocation, but it feels at least liberating, open doors ahead.
You are helpful when you pointed relationships. Actually I feel neither of us is being as supportive as it could be to the other's needs. While I try to work to improve it, it seems it doesn't happen per se. It has been a relationships of several years. We both quitted the same situation, so in a way it was helpful for both of us, but still not enough for the relationship, which is still strained.
In what regards to my family, they figured out that situation themselves. Their created debt was paid to some degree and they calmed down, and as I seeked peace, the situation was much calmer afterwards. I wish to remain friendly but dettached.
What is mostly strangely is not feeling good with others, because of all the mess sometimes occuring, but nothing feeling good when it comes to being alone either (because it feels selfish). Actually I feel very confortable being alone, but then I just indulge in my own interests, and that's the problem, it is self-oriented. With other people, it's very easy for me to relate at a social non-intimate level, but of course I ask myself what else is more, when it comes to intimacy, there are obvious problems of selfishness too.
Thanks for you guys support! Love,
It has been a long time since I last came here.
Thanks for all the kind answers, especially the ones of GLB and third-density-being were rather helpful (all of you were).
I now decided to quit and leave this job, community and current country. Actually I was living away from Portugal, third-density-being, so Tamera was not the intentional community I was living in. As I travel I will look around. Like you suggested. But in first stage, I am returning to my home country. So, no clear plan, no job or source of income, no clear vocation, but it feels at least liberating, open doors ahead.
You are helpful when you pointed relationships. Actually I feel neither of us is being as supportive as it could be to the other's needs. While I try to work to improve it, it seems it doesn't happen per se. It has been a relationships of several years. We both quitted the same situation, so in a way it was helpful for both of us, but still not enough for the relationship, which is still strained.
In what regards to my family, they figured out that situation themselves. Their created debt was paid to some degree and they calmed down, and as I seeked peace, the situation was much calmer afterwards. I wish to remain friendly but dettached.
What is mostly strangely is not feeling good with others, because of all the mess sometimes occuring, but nothing feeling good when it comes to being alone either (because it feels selfish). Actually I feel very confortable being alone, but then I just indulge in my own interests, and that's the problem, it is self-oriented. With other people, it's very easy for me to relate at a social non-intimate level, but of course I ask myself what else is more, when it comes to intimacy, there are obvious problems of selfishness too.
Thanks for you guys support! Love,
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